i just got out of the test room that i was in. not sure how well i did but i'd just hope for the best.

for the past week, i have been busy, yes. i have been out of track and unstable. sorry for not blogging that much for obvious reasons. i guess i will stop blogging for some time. say maybe a few month's time perhaps. but that aint the last decision. i'm still thinking. i guess im so packed up with stuffs around me, been thinking so much so that my head is going to blow off anytime soon. i was really, really in a bad mood yesterday. i hardly put on a smile on my face, if i did, it was a smirk. i felt like crying. i felt like dying. but yeah, im still alive and typing on this dell keyboard, so yeah i got it through. now, i remembered there's a saying, 'everything has got a bright side, you just have to look for it'. its true. noticed that i said 'i'd just hope for the best' in the first paragraph? i suppose i have already eaten that proverb alive. i am trying.

by the way prom's tomorrow..

things didnt change much since the last time i blogged. everything's pretty much the same. complains about tests, assignments.. studies. other than that, i wouldnt really want to talk about it. i really hope that someone out there will understand me. i dont think it is a difficult thing to do. im just a human being. a girl with her own thoughts and beliefs. a girl who might be naive and still learning about love and life. why do i have to be fooled everytime i put my feelings and efforts to it? all i want is just a simple thing, a genuine, honest and true feelings. i better not think about it now.. i rather not think about the future too. i'll just leave it up to fate because im restless and hopeless. please let something to help me be strong, let me pull through this.. i hope, i only hope... and i only wish...