just had my regular daily dosage of chocolate. wheeeeee! i love chocolate. reminds me Damien and Scott. Damien likes them, like i do but then Scott.. heheh he doesnt want me to take it. he said its making me fat. hahah ;) FACT: Chocolate can help tooth decay you know!

i didnt get plastered totally. instead i got all worked up and the next thing i know is that i was on my bed and some transparent liquid thing came out of my eyes. weird, whats that? i did had coupla beers and fags actually.. but then i dont know. mom got back home, bought some food for me and then off i went to my room, i danced to the tunes of express 2 - lazy, britney spears(YUCK!) - latest single, i dont know. i slept after that. until an hour ago. i got up, switched on the radio, listen to it and was dancing again to tunes like ashanti feat. fat joe - whats love and.. hmm, i forgot about it. i was still half asleep! i dragged myself to take my shower of the day and here i am. i smell good. hehe :)

i didnt go to college today. i couldnt get myself out of the bed. i was feeling sick. like i am stoned for the whole day. hmm i havent really tried that and how would i know anyway?! if my life were to keep on going like that, im gonna die of too much boredom or die of being numb. today is so meaningless. i did nothing useful today. buckdich. feel like screaming right now. AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

i REALLY need to finish up the book that im reading. its called. GRRRLS - Viva Rock Divas. i've finished reading about Courtney Love, Debbie Smith, Sonya Aurora Madan(both of them are from the band, Echobelly) and currently about Bjork. hmm.. costs me lots of trouble to get that, the cash and you can only get it in kl. i thank god cuz my sister is in kl.. heheh

i got a friend, male friend who's hmm i dont know how to predict about him. he's weird. i mean.. erm, weird. started flirting with me when i first met him online.. we were okay, we went out coupla times. it wasnt anything serious. the few times.. we went out, he just HAVE to have alcohol. i dont get it why. if you are a guy who is reading this, please tell me why. you see, you guys are going out on a date and it wasnt a night outing or something or clubbing but why does alcohol have to be involved? well the first time we went out we went clubbing and that is okay. drinking is not the right thing to do on dates. you can simply ask any love doctor or anyone who is an expert in dating games. i once read it somewhere on the net and i find it true. haha he's an alcoholic if i may say. in addition, he's the kind of person who doesnt talk the talk. if you know what i mean. i bumped into him online and again he was asking me whether we could meet up again. Hmm..

just checked my email account and i got an email from Sami from UAE. he is a dear friend. someone who i have fancy him all this while. he's one hell of a guy and he is the oldest person that i know thru the net. he's the first male that i bumped into and still keeping in touch with him. we often lost touch but in the end, we managed to find each other, its amazing though. usually i find him. i could get a Ms. Vain for saying that. im not sure if i want to reply him email. he said he's worried. a snippit of the email:-
hey there cutie pie! i dont know where you've been or what you've been upto but i hope it's that you're too busy to reply and nothing serious that happened to you cause i'm worried as hell...i e-mailed you and you didn't reply, i tried to stay coo' about it but it's been a week now so that's enough!!! how have you been and where were you!??! i missed you, i truly did...i want you to take good care of yourself, please reply this time!

oh well i dont know..

im going off to feed my dog now. she's hungry already. take care all. be true to yourself. cheers! :)