with the ups and downs of things that had been going on in my life. i am so sick of everything. everytime when it is time for me to sleep, im hopeless. i felt like crying. everytime when i was woken up by my alarm clock, im hopeless, again. i felt like crying. for no reason at all? maybe. i am so confused. maybe i see things differently. maybe i dont see things. i can tell you that there are several times a day i really feel like crying. daily routine still goes on, activities go on but then at the end of the day i felt empty. thats so harsh. and i thought that all along i can handle pain well.. hm, maybe but this time, i guess i needed some support or consolation. darn, felt like crying again.

nothing changed. i often question myself. why do i always end up in this depression that im in. well, i often console myself saying that being in depression is not a bad thing at all. i'll know what im feeling, i'll write about it and learn from it. i guess its not a bad thing at all. maybe i should just get out of this, being too much attach to depression aint a good thing. i need to learn a thing or two about get over remedies. i should get some help, but are there any help available or offers out there?

im sure that i'll be all tensed up again this week. gees, hopefully i will get over it fast and without much difficulties, hopefully i can cope with it and then i shall have my two wks' break and spend it joyfully. again, hopefully.

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