dammit. no idea why Putra aint talking to me. i was looking through the things that i wrote, my archieves and then i reliased such a sweetie he was and i actually missed him. i just fucking wonder why he dont want to even talk to me as a friend at least! fucks. eveyrtime i see him online, i just wished that he could just talk to me. just need someone to talk to, i dont think im asking for much, am i? sheesh.

oh and Kalesh called me up. planning away on his trip to kuantan and kl. sheesh. i dont know . im so freaking confused about things going on right now. dammit i need some good advice. i need a crystal ball!

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