Boy, am I glad to hear that his dad is doing fine. I have been through that kind of situation as well, his dad or rather his whole family is lucky to have such a great support coming from relatives, friends and fellow well wishers. Back then my situation wasn’t that lucky. Vultures were behind our backs and preying and stabbing away with their parangs. Allow me to say this, I think that nothing feels even worse than this.

I guess that somehow gave me a lil bit of influence on the shaping of my current character. I can’t be as bubbly as before. Things turned grey and dull. He can’t get up and I can’t get up as well. I am lying there while inhaling the air with no feelings or whatsoever. But he is looking down on me now although he is still lying there.

Sigh.

Alive without breath. As cold as death.

Anyway, when I took my nap just now, a friend of mine suddenly sms-ed me and asked if I want Jason Lo’s number. OMG. *covers mouth in disbelief* and so, I got his number.. though am not sure if it’s for real. Come to think about it, let’s say if I suddenly sms or call him right, I might be considered as a stalker. Hah. You tell me what should I do to know if that number is really his and how should I do not to sound like a stalker?

Well, my nap only lasted for 20 minutes and that’s it. The sky looked like it was around 8pm while it was only 6pm.

And now if you ask me how I feel right now, I think I am depressed and down. Even the mild seven that I am having taste awful and I think it is taking a toll on me.

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Everclear - Wonderful