"what is it with you and indian guys?" - ouch! i'd say.
i'm sure that this guy sounded like dez. dez is someone who doesnt really like me the way i am therefore criticize me and i sense there will be more statements and critics to come from this guy. not good.

so kalesh called me up. its just that everytime we're on the phone, it hurts so much that i wanted to keep the conversation short and i want to have him all by myself. sound selfish but that's one of the rules when you're in a relationship dammit. i just couldnt stand it when he mention about her. what is it with men these days huh? are they all out of their minds? i feel very sad right now. had coupla drops of tears came running down my cheek.
he read the sms to me "im looking at the stars right now. they're so beautiful. i'm thinking of you now."
argh agrh argh, i thought to myself. i could just blurt out 'cool' to him.
"i'm going to crash you one day. i'm going to crush you. i'm going to bang you." what kind of saying is that? i dunno.
obviously something's wrong here. do you see it?
i cut the conversation short. since he's having headache and i told him that im reading a book which im actually not doing that. i was pondering and... well, nothing. he wasnt feeling too happy about it. he thought i was avoiding him or smth. bah! gosh. i felt like dying now.

can someone just fcuking understands me now? not even my mom does. she aint giving me space to breathe. nags. yeah.

i feel so angry. i'm living in coma black.

had a fag and im going to have the last one for today then bed time. Zzz..