Fallen.

I succumb to a stupid thing call love. Some people say that love is blind. I guess I know what it really means and how it really feels by now. An infernal chill tingled kinda feeling ran through my heart just now. I felt cold. Perhaps it’s tainted. I need to be touched and loved. Most importantly, I want to feel secure. Apprehensively inferior crept down my veins. I almost burst into tears without realization that this isn’t what I need to feel. I’m only human. How could someone take your feelings for granted? Where is the norm? Where is this stupid thing?

Gosh, my heart is homeless. All I needed is a sheltered place to keep this feeble heart from being drained from downpour along with anxiety of thunder storms. I used to run to him but now, I guess I’ll run from him. I’ve totally lost everything. I couldn’t sleep at night.

I hear a voice at night. A voice telling me that I should let go. A voice that asks me to be strong as days passes me by. A voice that says everything will be alright. All I need to do is to carry on. I know I’m on a breakdown. I know I’m crazy for cutting myself. I know I need to pack my things and go. I know I still hold on although I’ve been hurt. I know somehow I’ve lost my mind.

Please take my tears away. Please take away my heart. Please take away the pain. Please take away my soul. Please take away me.

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