Reality Jolts.

i know that i wasnt in the mood for anything. at times like these, i dont know what would make me feel better. one things for sure, i wasnt feeling good. just sad, depressed, angry, frustrated, alone, lost and confuse. however, the moment i tried to write it down, i got nothing to write about. staring at the screen made my mind go blank and empty.

after all that partying and excessive socializing slash hanging out, i feel so ever alone in my life right now. things are so quiet right now. seeing everybody having fun, i had fun too. i really tumpang happy. a teensy part of me slaps myself and says this is going to be over but heck i had fun during the process anyway. from all that recent past activities, i noticed that everybody's life is like a gem, so full of exciting activities and so full of life and thrills. but now they go their separate ways and go on with their lives.

it's like what janis joplin was famous for saying...

on stage, i make love to 25,000 people... but i'm going home alone.

i tested the water and i hated it, i got bounced back like a rebound ball and i never pick it up again. but now i know that i had to, i just... had to. and it just sucked. bottom line is, im just a tad bit sad and unhappy about my life right now. im broke senseless. frighteningly without a direction in life. quite shockingly lonesome. and sickeningly clueless.

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David Tao - Season Of Loneliness