Fool.

it seems like im always the fool to everybody. you people actually think that you guys are all that great? now the reason why i might seem like one is probably because you smart asses asked me to do something without proper coaching and instructions. how would you expect people to understand and do it correctly?

but seriously, i do think i am a fool. a fool to myself. a statement that i dont say it. i comfort myself with positivity. why should i put up with you guys if i can soar and be so much better and get much better pay than sticking myself to you guys.. people who doesnt understand me, doesnt care, doesnt want to do things correctly, always criticize, always a pain in the neck, pretending to be oh so great.. well, a bunch of pseudo greatness asses.

i do myself a favour and for you guys too.. to be the fool for you to push me around, the fool that always clean up the mess, the fool that smile and greet, the fool that was forced to do the stuffs. i guess its alright to stick around for a while, i always tell myself. its okay to earn less than my peers, its alright to be out of my league, its okay to be tiringly hard laboured.

the thing is, i can do that temporarily.. but what if the pressure or the shit hits the fans, will i be able to handle it? will i still be the fool that i deceive myself to be?

deep down, im itching and twitching with annoyance to leave. mentally and physically i dont think i can take it anymore. im worried about my psysical and mental health, my lifestyle, my social life, my relationship and my future.

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Goldfrapp - Fly Me Away