She Runs Away.

There she is, sitting on the toilet bowl with hot water splashing on her head and dripping down from her hair. She didnt care if she is inhaling the vapour of the warm water or her cold tears dripping down from her eyes. She covered up her face and she continued crying. She has been sitting there the whole evening, her whole body feels warm but she felt so cold like winter inside of her. She didnt care if it is cloudy outside, she didnt care if it is going to rain, she didnt care if that reminded her of him, she didnt care if her skin is starting to crumble up. She just sit there and soak herself with the warm water and weep.

She knows in her tiny little heart that she is the only one that could help herself to get out of this wreckage, to get out of this state of depression and to stay alive. But why is everything seems so painful to her? No one came, no one knows. She cant seem to pick herself up. She cant seem to get out of shower. She cant seem to get out of this infinite sadness.

When she closes her eyes, she could feel and visualize the pain. The pain of the deceased who departed suddenly, the pain of being neglected, the pain of her heart being broken, the pain of not being able to speak her mind, the pain of being blindly and silently in love, the pain of loosing someone dear, the pain of being pushed and pressed, the pain of pain being bottled up inside, the pain on her left wrist and oh the bleeding. She already had enough.

All she wanted is just to pop a few tablets of sleeping pills into her mouth and let chemical take control of her body. She just want to fall asleep. She doesnt care if it is not 12 midnight whereby she is supposed to be in bed. She doesnt care if her hair doesnt dry up before she lay down on her bed. She doesnt care if she didnt fall asleep on the arms of someone she loves. She doesnt care anymore.

So wont you pass her the sleeping pills?

[soundbites]
Silverchair - Miss You Love

Piss Off.

I am so blardy sick of being nice. Im always the one talking, and asking you how you are and what you've been doing. Im so sick of asking how your day was and even take the initiative to talk to you. What is your problem? Is it fun ignoring people and keep on getting attention? Cant you get sick of people who just stay dead while clearly you are trying to communicate with them? They just ignore you for no particular reason at all. I am too bloody nice. FUCK YOU ARROGANT BASTARDS.

Do you know how the NME award looks like?
It's a hand showing its middle finger.

I am showing that to you right now, you idiots.

[soundbites]
Zwan - Ride A Black Swan

Dis the Dish.

I got a book from a friend! Yay, it's written by Sue Townsend - one of the Adrian Mole series. *smiles*

I dont usually watch tv at home but when I popped by a friend's place just now, we watched some comedies, the midnight news and fear factor for almost 3 hours while having loads of pistachios, some slices of water melon and mandarin oranges. I've finally managed to get back in touch with the big black box. I've found laughters and enlightenment through it. Hahah.

Gosh, I woke up this morning and the pimple on my left nostril is getting bigger, it looks like I've got another piercing on my left nostril. Gee, it's getting worse. I gotta pop it when I wake up tomorrow. Hah!

For almost half a day I was being a companion-cum-fashion-advisor for a friend at a photo studio today. It was boring but it was an eye-opener. I was slacking for a little as I fell asleep on the couch for 20 minutes. They've got cool gadgets though such as Apple computers, the whole set mind you, a huge digital camera(ya heard me!), couple of flat screens and sorts. They even have a real nice structure of the building, eye-catching decorations and the people there are friendly and surely the price came out as 300 buckeroos instead of 200 buckeroos. *faints*

This week has been busy and it will stay like that until mid of next week I hope. I will be heading down south, running chores, getting things done and damn the bill came today, I gotha head down to telekom as well.

Ah well, it's making me dizzy already. Sigh. It has been a long day.. or days, need sleep badly.
I've only got my bed to crawl onto and my comfy nest to sneak into and be safe and be warm.

Am off to bed now. Byes.

[soundbites]
Jeff Buckley - Ulalume

Who Needs that?

I just finished another bowl of spaghetthi. *slurps* But yeah, Im sure that my stomach is expanding. Damn, wasted my one and a half weeks of so called diet. Sigh.

Someone from Hitz.fm called me today asking me to verify my information that Ive sent through email regarding Starsailor contest. WTF? Okay, the call was just to verify the information that Ive given. Seriously I couldnt recall anything. Perhaps it was like ages ago. Anyways Starsailor's album was out a few months back, if Im not mistaken, it was towards the end of November. (correct me if im wrong) The girl who called me up said that someone might have used my particulars without my consent. Now why would anyone do that if I was picked and surely the prize would be entitled for me right? Oh well, I told her its up to her to decide. I seriously dont know where I stand but who cares about the prize anyway since Ive got broadband at home, thanks to its quick downloading speed. She hung up. Hah.

So today was quite productive. I cooked my friends and family spagetthi. Yay.

Edited @ 1:31am

I accidentally burned my right thumb and index finger while lighting up scented candles. Im going to bed with two black fingers. :( Silly me.

[soundbites]
Pete Yorn - On Your Side

Did I Imagine You?
by Dot Allison

When I close my eyes
I can see you reach out to me
In my deepest dream
I can hear you call out to me

Where in the world are you tonight?

Did I Imagine You?
Did I Imagine You?
Are you somebody real?
That I can touch and feel?

Here in my dreams
I'm waiting for you
Just take my hand
I'll carry you through

Now and then it seems
I can hear you climb the stairs
Opening the door
I realise you're not there

Where in the world are you tonight?

Did I Imagine You?
Did I Imagine You?
Are you somebody real?
That I can touch and feel?

Here in my dreams
I'm waiting for you
Just take my hand
I'll carry you through

Ask Me Again.

Before I go to sleep is the time when I come up with the best words for what I wanted to say in my blog. I love the serenity and clarity I get and it is where I got the best words to decribe my feelings.. alas, too late.

[soundbites]
Explosions In The Sky - Glittering Blackness

Ape Shall Not Kill Ape.
DDA's Penang Farewell Show - Gig Review

Text can only say so much, so let the pictures do the talking.


Swearwood - first on the line up.


I got in kinda late so only a few pics were taken and they are kinda crappy.
Sorry for the alteration.


Next up, White Light!


Pic taken without flash. Shakey isnt it?


Sina, the guy sitting down, used to be DDA's drummer helping out with the sampling for White Light.


Fee Ren on vocals. *surprise!*


Last song from White Light. Free Jamming session!


These guys came all the way from Singapore! - Force Vomit.


Give it up for the trustfund rockers! *claps*


Syarul from Love Me Butch was invited to join them on stage!


That's all folks.


Kevin from Love Me Butch went body surfing, woohoo!


Pic taken without flash when Pedram was next to Forcevomit's vocalist - Dino who thanked him for inviting them to play.


Much awaited. DDA finally took over the stage after a short interval.


Pic of DDA taken without flash.


Pedram on guitar and Ian on bass.


Paul.


Nice shot of Pedram. :D


Paul..! solo.. !


SOLO! Paul strut his stuff.


Group picture taken after the gig. Fellow KL-ites, fellow bandies, fellow supporters all together!

- Picture removed -
I managed to rub shoulders with the frontman of Love Me Butch - Syarul.


Their (DDA) performance had to cut short because Pedram's guitar string broke. I was hoping that he would have got an extra guitar or something because they have been gigging for the past two years. They should've come across this kind of situation. Oh well. It's okay seeing that we managed to listen to some of their songs which will be featured in the new album. Yes, I've finally managed to collect each and everyone's John Hancocks from members of DDA.

In faith we trust that DDA will make a come back. :P
Their album "Ape Kill Ape" will be out soon within this month or early of next month by the latest. Be sure to check out their album ok?

Im off to take my breakie + lunchie + teabreakie before going to send off friends to Auzzie.

R.I.P.

- Lizzy -

A moment of silence please.

GIG!

Edited.

Farewell show by Damn Dirty Apes alongside with White Light, Swearwood, Love Me Butch and special appearance by - Force Vomit.

Yes, TODAY 4:30pm @ Actors Studio, Greenhall.

Keep ya guys updated with photos later.

Watch this space!

Rumble Doll
by Patti Scialfa

Baby take a walk in toy land
Be my hero play the part
I'm falling down hard from salvation
Come protect this china heart
Though my party dress is torn
I still walk and talk and cry and crawl
And I've got no one on my arm
Well I am just a rumble doll

Now some girls are just born lucky
Yeah they're lucky that's for sure
Well in my soul I've never felt that clean though I
I know my heart is pure
Sometimes I feel like I know too much - and
Sometimes I feel like I don't know nothing at all
But I can still be soft to the touch
Well I am just a rumble doll

Now I don't know how to unlock the door
To those forgiving words - no I
I just don't understand
'Cause every time I try to turn that key
It leaves a dark stain in my hand
So measure my intentions against my sins
And if you think my name it should be called
I'll be on the outside somewhere looking in
Well I am just a rumble
I am just a rumble
Well I am just a rumble doll

So baby take a walk in toy land
Be my hero play the part
I'm falling down hard from salvation
Come protect this china heart.