Marketing explained.

phew! presentation and business project are over :)

but assignments and exams coming soon :(

argh, mixed feelings.

tired. too much socialization and driving around lately.

err.. actually i think i was being cheery for the whole day and thats why im tired. doesnt make sense? good. cuz i dont know what im talking about either.

what do these dates have in common? 2nd june, 9th june, 12th june, 17th june, 26th june, 27th june.
these are the dates that i will be having my exams and assignments due dates.

oh stress. i cant even feel that today's friday. and i cant feel that im having a bf either. whats wrong with me? argh, complications and vagueness. dont ask me to clarify cuz i dont know what to clarify here.

i might not be able to update this weekend though, gonna rush off to finish off assignments. my routine will be waking up in the morning, switch on the pc, start doing my assignments until i got bored, go rest for a while, refresh and then back to assignments again. boring eh? well, you guys have a great weekend eh! :)

im going to have a fag before hitting the sack.. kinda early eh? oh well, you have a good laugh with the following. Cheers! :)

The buzz word in today's business world is MARKETING.

However, most people often ask for a simple explanation of "Marketing."

Here it is:

You're a woman and you see a handsome guy at a party.

You go up to him and say, "I'm fantastic in bed,"

That's Direct Marketing.

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a handsome guy.

One of your friends goes up to him and pointing at you says,

"She's fantastic in bed,"

That's Advertising.

You see a handsome guy at a party.

You go up to him and get his telephone number.

The next day you call and say,"Hi, I'm fantastic in bed,"

That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a handsome guy.

You get up and straighten your dress.

You walk up to him and pour him a drink. You say,"May I," and reach up to

straighten his tie brushing your breast lightly against his arm, and then

say, "By the way, I'm fantastic in bed,"

That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a handsome guy.

He walks up to you and says, "I hear you're fantastic in bed,"

That's Brand Recognition.

You're at a party and see a handsome guy.

You talk him into going home with your friend.

That's a Sales Rep.

Your friend can't satisfy him so he calls you.

That's Tech Support.

Tmr's my presentation! O.O

wish me luck.

anyway here's smth for you to digest. erm, no idea where I got it from. but heck, enjoy!

Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence.

If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.

Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence.

~taken from return to innocence by enigma

I'm not doing anything to my assignments and my factory visit questionnaires.

I cant do jack shit.

GARHHHH.

erm, disconnected from the net and I called him. harhar.

how's thursday? can we meet up?
i cant. i got an assignment to hand up on friday. (Lied)
how about friday then?
for knowing myself, i think i will be doing last minute shit so no cant do.
oh shit! i got a presentation to do!!!

nothing special, nothing big, nothing mushy. just plain conversation.

then bye.

so byebye.

[this is so vain]

Frustration.

argh, blogger is acting up.. again!
haiyo. *sigh*
Sera, I sure hope ya dont mind me linkeroo you ok? of course that's when blogger is back to normal.

Anyway nearly got into an accident today. Damn, I was nicely singing Usher's Nice & Slow and crusing after dropping my friend near BJ. Suddenly I have to step on the break padel. (typo?) Emergency break is more like it!
Why those fucktards have to speed in front of free school road? Dont they know or see that the road is damn narrow?? Not to mention that there's a bottleneck up front?! *sigh* Malaysian roads, especially in Penang.. Fuckers.

He miss called me twice and finally when he called, I'm driving. He asked me to call him back after I got home. I have not though..

okay, frustration aside. I had a good time by the beach with my pal who gotha go back to seremban in two days' time. That idiotic bapok just HAVE to ask me for parking money. I refuse to pay man. It's not weekend, its weekdays for godness sake! besides that, it's not like a fenced up carpark. It's just a lorong, a housing area and it's not a private property!! ITS FUCKING ILLEGAL TO COLLECT MONEY FOR PARKING IN FRONT OF A HOUSE!!!

errr.. okay frustration came back to me.

No. I didn't curse them or anything when the incident happened or rather the presence of the bapok and his gang. The part that got me all worked up was that HE ACTUALLY CALL ME A BITCH!!! and when we're about to reach the beach, he purposely came by with his scooter and shouted that me and my friend "BO AKAI" (no brains) Like wtf?!

Okay, so what if I ignored you, Im not trying to find fault with you but you are finding fault with me. What IS your right? None. Zit. and what, wanna talk cock with me some more? What the hell is their problem? Just because of that rm1 and you want to curse and swear at us? I can give him that anytime but then as if he's going to really take good care of my car and be watchful over it. However, it's not private property so he doesn't have the right to collect any money at all. I can make a complain anytime that I want to because I have the right to. oh well, anyway allow me to quote from the movie, Parent Trap. "I've got class and you don't" so I dont want to argue with you.

PHEW!

okay, my car is fine when I checked it after I got back to the car. So far so good though. If anything, I know where they are and I can definitely recognize them.

Bastards!

okay, frustration be gone.

The factory visit is tomorrow. They manufacture pills and all that. Hmm, now lemme go back to do the interview questions.

garh.. sleepy and lazy. Now I wonder if Im going to call him. Hmmm.

Just leave..

I woke up feeling gloomy and a little murky despite I had a good time at the party last night. High school mate’s birthday party if you want to know. Initially I planned not to go college today but then automatically I was up before 8am. So I thought what the heck, I’m going for the heck of attendance then. I got up packed my stuff in less than 5 minutes and headed for the shower. I put on my longer stud and picked my ‘Keep Back 300 feet’ shirt to wear today since I’m feeling antisocial.

College sucks today. Big time. Boring lessons so basically being the lazy bummet that I am, I was sleeping through the lectures. Believe me, I just found out that I can get frustrated at boredom. Hah. I started fidgeting with my fingernails if you get what I mean. I kept changing positions in every 10 minutes. I even finished half a liter water within half an hour’s time. I sagged while I walk.

To add to the record, I got irritated by the service of the cyber café and also my mother. Bah.

I came back and I got the telephone bills today. Not good. Double the frustration.

I dropped everything on the floor or the table and I straight took everything off, took a shower to cool myself down and then I was on the bed. I had no trouble of giving moisturization to my eyes and yet I had no trouble of sleeping then. The thing that disturbs my sleep is my alarm clock, I let it snoozed for a few times that I actually lost count of it. I feel so comfortable and cozy, that is why I refuse to get up. I know I have my presentation slides to do. I know I shouldn’t be sleeping. I know I should be making good use of the time. I know I have my assignment to do. But what’s keeping me? Laziness.

Ah, screw it.

I managed to get up after a phone call from someone I don’t know. Wrong number.

Bastards.

I got up and I felt like blogging. But of course I’m just plain lazy to go through the events that happened since the last time I blogged.

So what do I do now?

I still blog.

Of course, I’m talking crap.

And listening to In Da Club by 50 cent.

Shit. I remember so vividly his smell. It’s so manly and so clear in my mind. But I’m feeling a lil sour in my feeble heart. I don’t want this and I don’t need this. I need not take shit from him. I should pack up and go. What’s keeping me? For the first time, I’m blaming the magnetic force. I’m arguing with myself that I’m going through a phase where I want to find myself free from him.

It’s starting to get dark in here. This song is the one.

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

~taken from my immortal by evanescense

Do you understand me now?

*yawns*
damn, I couldnt get back to sleep after my mom woke me up to do breakfast together. Im SO sleeppyyyyyyyyyyy.

My high score for [this] is now 15952013!! Woohoo. :D

[Edited at 7:17pm]

De Novo.

Actually I wanted to update my blog yesterday but then again my buddy sent me [this] and it was so addictive that I forgot to update my blog. :P

My highest score is 911 and I crashed. Hah.

Garh, the traffic jams, it took me a nice 20 minutes to get from Heritage Club to CGL. Sigh. Thank god I have Shant on the phone to keep me company. Thanks buddy! :) *hugs*
Oh by the way, before that I saw Exarch in front of belissa row there. heheh. Dude, did you cut your hair?

I just don’t get the police force in our country, all they wanted is bribe. duit kopi so the speak. I was driving slowly towards the Crown Jewel beach with mystery guy just now. I didn’t accelerate or anything when the light was yellow when I passed the traffic lights. The fella behind me accelerated when the light was red. Fine, the policeman stopped me and the fella behind me. He was so damn fierce towards me, he insisted that I was at the wrong and demanded for my license. So I took out my license and he walked away. Then another policeman came by and I told him that I wasn’t at the wrong end. This one is at least, soft spoken than the first one. The next thing I know, I handed him a ten dollar note. Not enough he said, thank god mystery guy was speaking tamil to him and for goodness sake, we are just students. He returned my license and I drove away.

Like wtf?
So illogical and so unreasonable.

Wasted my ten bucks to some fucktards. Oh well, to look on the bright side, at least I didn’t get a ticket out of it. Phew.

We had beers and fags by the beach just now. It’s really cozy and all that. I love the beach to bits. I didn’t want to leave if it wasn’t for mystery guy. I got to drop him at his cousin’s house to settle some stuff. The beers are a bit weird, it tasted funny. Eww. I could have use that ten bucks to buy me decent bottle beers instead of tin beers. Dumb fuckazoid.

My mouse isn’t working fine. The right button seems to be dysfunctional. I guess it’s time for me to get a new one. Damn I could have made good use of the damn ten bucks. Or at least that could have treated me to coffee bean or something. Stupid fuck.

I spotted two shell bracelets from Axxezz the other day when shopping with my friend. New arrivals. Damn I just have a thing for stuff that’s new arrival. Anyway a friend of mine working there so she can get it for me with the discount of 30% each item. Woohoo. Oh joy since I broke my Tiffany & Co. lookalike bracelet. NOW I could have made good use of that damn ten bucks. Twisted fucktards.

Hmmm, do I curse a lot? Seriously now. Shant thinks that I cursed too much when I drive. :D I told him that’s the only thing that keeps me sane. Heh. So do YOU think that I curse a lot?

Anyway I got a whole lot better compared to Monday. I still have phlegm running in my tunnels, or whatever you wanna call that. I seriously think that it’s because of the endless sticks of fags that I had two weeks back. My body is trying to get rid of the nicotine in the form of phlegm, maybe? The cough is not that frequent anymore and the sore throat is getting better everyday.

Nahh, Kel doesn’t know that I’m sick until yesterday. He called me and we talked for a while. He seriously have no time for me. Basically I can’t sense the closeness between us. I don’t think we even share a thing called intimacy. I don’t think I know him. But why am I complaining right? I’m better off alone.

Oh and he miss called me three times already in one and a 1/2 hour’s time.
Heck, he did it again.. miss call and also sms.

Well, no worries I got an assignment to keep me company for the next week and also preparation for my presentation at the end of this month. I have my exams in a few weeks’ time. It’s rather scary seeing that it’s just around the corner. Oh well, maximum push is the way to go.

No lost words, whisper slowly to me.
Still can't find what keeps me here.
And all this time I've been so hollow, inside,
I know you’re still there.

[soundbites]
Sigur Ros - Flugufrelsarinn

Appreciation as we depreciates.

Hey, today is National Thong Day! :D
*laughs* I woke up in the morning, tuned to Hitzfm and claimed by Lil Kev and Fly Guy that today is National Thong Day. Oh yeah, I was wearing a thong today though, just for the heck of it since I’ve stored my thong in the drawer to collect dust. High time for me to put it into good use. ;)

Wtf, I bumped into biatch this morning when I was on my way to class. Eww being the nice person that I am, I said morning to her. And again another incident, I saw her in the library. *shivers* I thought I'm going to have a bad day.

Anyways I couldn’t really concentrate in the class. First lecturer was teaching us Forex and the second lecture was about Value Chain, or Value Added Chain. Errrr.. *blur*

And I kept on bumping into Pemmy today. One incident in the afternoon, we were sitting in the cyber café and he was nicely having his blueberry cheese tart and we were chatting away. There’s this geek in his class suddenly came by the table, without acknowledging him or me, grabbed a chair and sit down. Like wtf. Obviously I don’t know him and I did not ask him to join us. So Pemmy screwed him up.. asking him to leave the table with his bottle of mineral water. He could have at least acknowledge or ask if he could join us on the same table or maybe introduce himself or smth. Well, he didn’t, you see and we were actually in the middle of a conversation then. Pemmy said he was being rude and *ahem* there is the presence of a lady some more. Like whoah. I feel superior. Hah. *perasan* Pemmy meant it like, immediately. Wow and he left. O_o

On another occasion, while I was on my way to drop him home, I nearly got into an accident.. no wait, two accidents. Whoa. He was really worked up compared to me. Haha. I was all calm and cool about it since there is no accidents occurred. He has a phobia you see. The first one was that the fella didn’t see that I was coming straight and he/she nearly knocked into my car. Close. The second one was the fella coming from my right and the old man wanted to cut into my lane without indicator and also nearly knocked into my car. Damn. The second one was rather scary. Pemmy pointed his middle finger at that old man. Woohoo.

Later in the evening, I went out with my best friend to gurney. She bought a pair of shoe and a bottle of massage oil from Body Shop. We then chilled out at coffee bean. I had my regular pure chocolate ice blended. Yum. Oh and Dunhill faggies. Hurrah. She’s always a good company for shopping and chilling out. Great friend indeed. We used to sit next to each other during f5 but when we were in f4, she sat in front of me. Oh the best part is we used to curi-curi makan in between classes and recess, although I am the class monitor. :D She would bring her homemade sandwiches and fried rice and she would be like distributing among our neighbors. Nice and humble girl. She is a very good friend that I can really rely on and also someone that I can really sit down and talk crap for hours without feeling pressured or constraint. Pure relaxation when I’m with her. Btw, just wanna add in, she’s really good in computers. I think she majors in programming and web-designing, erm probably networking too.

So the lesson that we learn today boys and girls, is appreciation.

[soundbites]
Audioslave – Like A Stone

aaAaaaaAAaAAAaaaaAAAAAAAAhhhhhh CcchhoOOooooOooooooooooo~

*sniff*

oh god.. I think Ive used up a lot of tissues. sneezing, sniffing.. damn the flu. errr, they're all crumbled up and sitting nicely next to my keyboard now. whoever is willing to volunteer to dispose them eh?

btw is there such a thing as apple greentea? hmm I didnt know that.

Tempered Mental and Mogwai.

Whoah! I got two cds today. One which is courtesy of Miranda that consists of songs from Mogwai. Name of the album is 'Come On Die Young' to be precise. ;) Another one is the courtesy of Tempered Mental. They sent it to me by mail and that’s their EP.. or rather their demo Hmmm it looks pretty professionally handled by the look of the cd and cover.

Gonna listen to them now.

Today was kind of drag-gy again for me. As I am officially sick. Sigh, I guess late nights and too much socialism is taking their toll on me. I told you! Socialism is not my thing! Anti-socialism is more like it. Garh, I feel groggy and all worked up when I saw biatch’s car this early morning.. and it didn’t help either when I saw biatch II with her thick make-up, *shrugged* eww the blusher which made her face looks really big and squarish, oh and not to mention her so called scarf is looking good on her. Hah.

This is bad. I’m not feeling well. Mystery guy called me up yesterday night, well, technically this early morning around 2am. I was sleeping then but then managed to hold a decent conversation with him for 35 minutes. So he hated Kel as I was complaining about Kel to him. And somehow I think Justin told him that he has been going out with me.. like WTF? We only met once and that was the first and last time that I saw him before bumping into him in the club the previous Saturday night.

Oh well, I couldn’t be bothered much anyway.

I managed to get an hour’s nap in the afternoon. Actually I just woke up and yeah, I took my shower and I smell like berry! :D

Alright, I’ve just finished listening to Tempered Mental. They can do a better combination though, there is some inconsistency in their notes. It is especially obvious when they are playing Space In Time. I think they need a better studio to have a better sound but then again, it’s really difficult to come up with the sum of money and commitment for producing an album or even an EP. I’d say that they are really heavy on the guitar but then again the drum needs a lil tuning. Erm the vocals? She can sing, well, at least she didn’t go off tune but she needs a lil tuning as well. :)

Well those are the improvement that they can do but then again I seriously think that they have the potential to go very far. I personally like Undone though. This song is a better sounding among the other 3 songs in the EP. Oh did you know that Tempered Mental is only a three piece band? IF you didn't notice, the vocalist is a girl, her name is Melina, she's also the bassist for the band. Oh and their logo rocks! :D

Do check them out. I think I have their link somewhere on the right.

Now I’m gonna check out the Mogwai cd that Miranda has burned for me.

Addiction. I need fags. I need sleep.

Bad habit. Im a lazy bummet. Im biting my nails. Im not moving my arse around the house.

Hmm, Im gonna take a shower then might just help me in getting a free ticket to studyland. Woohoo.

oh and I need to take the hypnotic and soppy songs out of my head to feel better. Woohoo, here comes Craigie. :D

Bewildered.

I seriously need to keep myself busy. Is there anyone out there willing to let me be his/her pest? I’m really good at that. I have several years of experience and I never failed to annoy them. I do have a few tricks up my sleeves but then I won’t reveal them here.

Erm, okay folks, I’m crapping.

Fact is, I am actually trying to keep myself busy.

So yesterday night was kinda drag-gy.
He was being potong stim.. yet again.
Biatch was online yesterday and she msged me and we started talking to each other. Hmm. “I can get along better with guys”.. yeah and I can see that alright and like, Whatever. *roll eyes*
Went clubbing but it was jam packed. I went around in circles trying to find a damn parking lot. With huuus and haaas, we finally got in the club in one piece and for free. Whoopeeee~ anyways I saw my lecturer there, mystery guy and also Justin. My lecturer is erm, gay? But he sure dance very very well, you can just ask him not to speak and everything will be alright. ;)
Mystery guy cut his hair and was wearing some styling gel, buttoned shirt, erm looking good I guess and we danced for a bit. LOL butt grinding and he nearly couldn’t find his balance. ;)
Justin pretended that he doesn’t know me at first but then he acknowledged each other after that. “This is my 7th week here.. non-stop.” Ooh yeah.. harhar.
Live band shucks, no hip hop, all were jungle and trance and erm football themes?
I dunno.

Today I’m staying home to nurse my cough and dry throat. Weird, my mom was very benggang at me yesterday, she keeps on leaving voice messages and I hate that. Each getting angrier and nastier. Hell yeah, she even threatens me. But no worries, she’s now okay with me.

Well I sent my sister to the bus stop just now and accompanied my mom to do her hair and later gotha drop her at city bayview. Hmm, the day pretty much is lame.

Excuse me while I go join Nigel in studyland. I got to be prepared for next week’s test and I haven’t been there in a while now.

Hmmmmm..

*wonders*

Nope, don’t think so.

I think I wanna go take a nap. Bye.

Fallen.

I succumb to a stupid thing call love. Some people say that love is blind. I guess I know what it really means and how it really feels by now. An infernal chill tingled kinda feeling ran through my heart just now. I felt cold. Perhaps it’s tainted. I need to be touched and loved. Most importantly, I want to feel secure. Apprehensively inferior crept down my veins. I almost burst into tears without realization that this isn’t what I need to feel. I’m only human. How could someone take your feelings for granted? Where is the norm? Where is this stupid thing?

Gosh, my heart is homeless. All I needed is a sheltered place to keep this feeble heart from being drained from downpour along with anxiety of thunder storms. I used to run to him but now, I guess I’ll run from him. I’ve totally lost everything. I couldn’t sleep at night.

I hear a voice at night. A voice telling me that I should let go. A voice that asks me to be strong as days passes me by. A voice that says everything will be alright. All I need to do is to carry on. I know I’m on a breakdown. I know I’m crazy for cutting myself. I know I need to pack my things and go. I know I still hold on although I’ve been hurt. I know somehow I’ve lost my mind.

Please take my tears away. Please take away my heart. Please take away the pain. Please take away my soul. Please take away me.

Disinar oleh senyumannya
Begitu indah, walaupun sejenak
Engkau tak mengerti
Betapa resah hatiku
Saat kau hadir dihiasi oleh mimpi
Mendekapku, mendamaikan tidurku
Sekarang kau berpaling sayang
Mengapa terjadi
Seribu tanya sesak di dada
Satu kata janji tak kembali
Hapus lelah harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu..

Fuzzy entry

argh, for the past week was pathetic. I've been going out every night and everyday since last week. not good. I dont even have the time to blog and for some blogs that I usually frequent, I think Ive lost touch with them.. garh..

*whine whine whine*

Im broke as well if you ask. I still owe my friend money for drinking beer just now.
I was at sega the past two nights.. for a while. its more like a quick meeting up with friends and classmates.

today's weather was gloomy. I couldnt see sun rays or sunshine.. so yeah, a good time to sleep in. I slept for one hour plus in the afternoon tho, total refreshment. :)

okay, this entry is not getting me anywhere. damn Siah, now look what you have done!!!
Humph.. no Im not stoned, mind you.

oh well, looks like I gotha go off now cuz I have to wake up at 6 this morning, technically.
sheesh and come to think about it, I think I might be going out this afternoon. garh. date dates dates..


Right, so Im signing off people. Late nights taking its toll. Sleep early everyone and may Juventus wins :)

Gigs, I surrender.

Hello. Sorry for the lack of updates. I’ve been pretty busy since Thursday. It has been quite an eventful of weekend for me. Loud music, metal music, moshpit, bodysurfing, head banging, jumping, lots of smoke, lots of sweat and etc. it was so full of energy.. and of course lots of energy wasted.

On Saturday, the crowd didn’t really turn out that well. You can say that it’s not packed at all. There are still lots of spaces. I noticed that the malays are very supportive of their malay bands but when it comes to Chinese bands, they sat down and weren’t that supportive in any kind. Definitely not because of the language. They were all singing in English. (I suppose so because you can’t tell what the hell they are singing anyway) this is sad. Discrimination.

During intervals and between bands, the organizer played Manson’s latest album. All the tracks. Damn, it’s fantastic. Even the live bands can’t be as good as manson. *thumbs up*

The best part was when Sympozium took the stage. The frontman was reading an ancient scroll before starting off on the heavy beats and screaming. They really brought the crowd together to mosh and jam with them. I think they sounded like Cradle of Filth for a lil. However, it was very sad for the first few bands. When they played, it was not even crowded. The crowd hasn’t even build up.

Besides that, long time-famous for their dreadlocks, Koffin Kanser was the star among the stars. Well, like what you may already have in mind, hardcore shit, moshpit, bodysurfing, and more moshpit. Pickcell was expected to paint their faces but then they didn’t. the DJ was kind of unnecessary because you cant hear him turn and it just doesn’t blend in with the heavy music.

As for O.D.I, the fella who took the limelight was Kelvin Yang with his “SOLO!!!”. Hah. He’s the noisiest guitarist alive. I couldn’t really see the crowd or what their reactions towards their music cuz I was recording the band playing on stage. The drummer, Eugene also played for Gaugepit, his initial band. Gaugepit is another band who’s been around in the penang underground scene for a while now. I heard of them when I was in form 3 I think. They played their own stuff compared to last time and the frontman’s hair is awesome. Hah. He’s more like the Vidal Sassoon spokesperson rather than a rock star. :D anyway I noticed that the keyboardist of Gaugepit has the same slayer shirt that I have! And I nearly wore it on that day itself! Phew.

It was all good. I’m too lazy to go thru other bands because they all sounded pretty much the same. The gig started at 1pm until past 10pm at night. me and my friends left the place around 10 smth. We went to mamak after that.

But yeah, a good time it is as expected. I do secretly feel that loud music is just not my thing anymore although I like it a lot when I stand in front of the amps when DDA was playing. It was pure heaven. The music was mellow yet energized with hypnotization. Very powerful. Their set was the one that I enjoyed most. You can say that they never failed to hypnotize me.

However, Love Me Butch was the most dominant among other bands. Front man really brought down the place. Awesome. Although Soundcraft 1 played the same songs on Saturday but they sure sounded different. For me, they are moving, the godfather of penang gigs, Vinh still has it and Asrul is the man who uses his mouth to blow this pipe-like ‘instrument’ which made some vibration sound.

Strangedays was as expected to be the like Depeche Mode and surely they are. The drum beats was replaced by the deck. Frontman was acting all very “ki-tang” like. Erm, spooky is the word mebbe? I dunno. Very moving too with their groups of supporters, all the way from kl I assume. Force Vomit came all the way from Singapore and they sounded like 70’s a-gogo type with a twist of old-skool. Very moving as well.

Phew, I tell you late nights really hitting me hard. I woke up felt sick and didn’t attend college today. Might be love sick, might be plain sick. Too much fags, not enough sleep. I intended to sleep the whole damn day and yeah you can say that I just got up just a while ago. Yes, dammit, SLEEP.

I’m bloated up with emptiness in me. I’m all messed up and stoned.

Zwan – Honestly
I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe the love you talk about with me
is it true, do I care
honestly, you can try to wipe the memories aside
but it's you that you erase

'cause there's no place that I could be without you
it's too far to discard the life I once knew
honestly, all the weather storms are bringing
are just a picture of my dreams
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I feel loved, this honestly

I believe you mean the best that life can bring
I believe in it all
honestly, you can try
your heart is just as long as mine
is it ours to let go

'cause there's not place that I could be without you
it's too dark to discard the life I once knew
honestly, a single wrong is not enough
to cover up the pain in us
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I'll make a joke so you must laugh
I'll break your heart so you must ask
is this the way to get us back
I don't know, honestly
I don't know, this honestly

there's no place that I could be without you
honestly

there's no place that I could be without you
there's no place that I could gleam without you
there's no place that I could dream without you
there's no place that I could be without you
honestly

ps - there will be another gig in June 21st, same place, Greenhall Actors Studio. will keep you guys posted!

another one hour and a half to go..




Oh no! She’s not 18 anymore.

Last day to be 18..

Im rather paranoid about this. this is the first time Im spending it with my friends, on my own, without guidance.
I fear the uncertainty. I fear the wrong path. but what is the wrong path?
I fear time, people, everything and even space.
I fear the nothingness as I sore cluelessly to the future.
darkness, I feel like letting go.
if only all of the strength and courage come and lift me from this place.

Sarah Mclachlan - Posession
Listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide
Voices trapped in yearning
memories trapped in time
The night is my companion
and solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here
and not be satisfied

And I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear

Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed,
Trying to find an honest word,
to find the truth enslaved,
Oh you speak to me in riddles and
you speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath,
your words keep me alive,

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

Into this night I wander,
it's morning that I dread,
Another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread,
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride,
Nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied,

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear...

by the way, today is Kel's bday tho.
once the clock struck twelve, i called him on his hse phone.
Man's voice went "Do you know what time it is now? Why are you calling him now?"
Whoah. his dad I figured.
I went "it's his bday and I wanna wish him so that's why I called."
like DUH!!!!! *knocks* kutuk kutuk..
he told me he's asleep so I said thank you and hung up.
......
*shows middle finger* no wait, *shows both middle fingers*
no wonder your son can become like this. no thanks to you.

no, I didnt give him a call on his mobile. you think I should?
I really dont want to make a big fuss abt it, but then at the same time, its for the sake of wishing him I guess.. or at least shows that I care for a lil.

oh well, it's 10.26pm now.
gonna give it a miss then. sigh.

hello full stomach. i had uncle's burger. damn damn nice! i'd recommend anyone who comes to penang to have this one. it's awesome! trust me on this. :)
byebye punto. salesgirl wanna give quotation but mama dowan. :(
hello biatch II. walking past me with her strutty walking style and squinting eyes. whatever. *roll eyes* :D

okay, i'm being a lil malaysian and childish there. heh.

anyways my ears stopped bleeding already. but occasionally it still bleeds, like 5 seconds ago. i'm going to finish the medicine tmr morning. i got myself three cassettes just now with the price of 10. just for driving pleasures. hah. pretty dandy. two albums are from L'Arc~en~Ciel, no idea how it's suppose to be pronounced tho and another album is from chang zhen yue. funny thing is, when i opened up one of the L'Arc~en~cial album, i saw the word 'kush kush hota hei', i went "WHAT THE FUCK!???" supposedly japanese songs but then they gave me indian songs?! yada yada yada.. went mumbling for a lil.. and my friends and i even did a lil jiggle.. how they would hold the tree trunk and swayed to the left and then to the right.. or how they would roll from the top of the hill and down the hill to a field full of flowers and stuff like that. really cracked me up. then somehow i popped in the cassette.. *shrugged* whoahhhhh, japanese songs! YAY! hurrahhhhhhh :D although we nutters dont know anything about japanese.

ok, end of story.

i got another econs assignment. damn. need to hand in the biz project draft report this friday.
i'm all raved up to this weekend's gigs.. yay~
now if only i have a digicam, then i can take pics and let you guys see.
whoever stays in penang HAVE to go! :P

time's up, im going to listen to kush kush hota hei. hah.

Damned if I know.

IM-POS-SI-BLE!!!!!!! :D
I'm retaking the test. lolz.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

[Edited: Stupid. still get the same results. sigh!]

yay.. a treat for myself to pure chocolate ice blended on sunday evening. *yum*

saturday was rather uneventful. so sunday came by and i had to go and see a doctor to treat my bleeding ears. it's not external bleeding but internal bleeding is more like it. i accidentally scraped off my skin and its bleeding ever since. it got worse on saturday night tho. stinging pain can be felt around my ears and jaw.. which made me sleepless and whining the whole night away. :D eventually now i cant hear anything. welp, you can say that i'm deaf on the right ear.. and people thought that loud music did the damage. harhar. but fear not, I took the medication to prevent the pain and swelling but it still bleeds although no further damage has been done to it. IM DEAF!!! OHHHHAAAHHHHH!!

I managed to get myself few clothings fron british india and fila. hmm courtesy of my mom. so unlikely but yeah, she did. that's kinda cool. and mind you, it's a three digit sum and seriously I havent seen that much of money in a while now. the best part is, a fiat punto was parked at the mezzanine floor and the next thing I know, I was sitting in it and all raved up to buy the car. hah. mom is kinda interested tho but my bro is wildly against it. hmm said whats the use of fun car which costs 70+k?
oh well.

anyway from the previous entry you got to know that someone scratched my car but thank god mom didn't say anything about it. she's all cool. phew! but then it's really ugly on the side, damn.

the factory visit has been cancelled and will be shifted to next week.
hmm, have you seen someone's dreadlocks which looks like the feet or whatchagonnacallit of a turantula?
what do you think of someone who has a lip piercing but then doesnt know the aftercare of lip piercing?
someone who has a sister who's a model and she talks loudly in public whenever she can..
what can you tell from this?

sheesh.

antisocialism is slowly taking over me. im angsty and dusty.
i need to take my shower now then go have my dinner, alone.
babye.

[soundbites]
Matchbox 20 - Unwell

Someone scratched my car!
dammit.
starting from the passenger door right till the left rear tyre. paint came out abit. scratches here and there. the passenger door kemik abit. I mean its obvious, it's so freaking obvious! GARH!
once I came home, changed into my house outfit and then took a wet cloth and rubbed the bits and pieces of paint and rubber off it and I waxed it. damn, I just got a car wash yesterday.
not good. it doesn't worth 43k anymore I suppose.
gloomy day.

So the mystery guy turned out to be really nice in real life. I picked him up just now when I had two hours break and then we went ronda-ronda for abit. It was fun. oh and yeah, my instinct was true. it's magical. harhar. he's Kel's friend. thank god he doesnt really fancy him and all that. phew!
well, it's good, we got off a good start. it's all good. *thumbs up*

I was in a coffee shop with my mom to have dinner just now and an old friend from primary school approached me. heh, he's so soft-spoken compared to last time. he used to be this really naughty, sweaty, odour-induced kid back in standard 5. he's now wearing spectacle so that makes him even more soft-spoken and all that. too bad we didn't have much time to do some catching up. but then it's good to bump into old friends. nostalgia.

I had a lil talk with minishorts the other day. It's true. I mean I dont think I can get around in forgiving him 100%. If I cant do that, I cant let go of what had happened, I will bring it up here and there. I knew it bcuz I kept bringing back the incident and I talked sarcastically when I was on the phone with him. I dont think I can do that. Besides that, I think there's any point of in forgiving him totally. He's not even trying. He's not even taking the initiative. he's just.. hopeless. He didnt show up or did any form of communication with me since monday night.

I was talking about this with mystery guy just now and I realised that I cant be with someone like this. I cant bear his attitude and the way he carry himself. he's just plain fraud. all along.. I was too blind to see it. I was too easy-going to realise all those.. and he took advantage of that. well, well.. no more Kel and his nonsence. Im all alone.

nope, not that Im complaining. :)

well, indeed a gloomy day, it's going to rain anytime soon though.
hmmm, can't wait for next week. gig alert! :)

chew on this soundbites, it gets to you, the more you listen to it. the more you listen to it, you will only then get the feeling and all that. the violin and cello blend well with electric guitar, bass and drums. a job well done. in addition, the vocalist's voice is strong and very intense. really made you build up the necessary feeling to the song. hope you like the song. :P

Sheila on 7 - Sephia
Hey, Sephia
Malam ini ku takkan datang
Mencuba untuk berpaling sayang
Dari cintamu

Hey, Sephia
Malam ini ku takkan pulang
Tak usah kau mencari aku
Demi cintamu
Hadapilah ini
Kisah kita takkan abadi

Selamat tidur kekasih gelapku
Semoga cepat kau lupakan aku
Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah
Sanggup untuk melupakanmu

Selamat tinggal kasih tak terungkap
Semoga kau lupakan aku cepat
Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah
Sanggup untuk meninggalkanmu

Hey, Sephia 
Jangan pernah panggil namaku
Bila kita bertemu lagi
Di lain hari
Hadapilah ini kisah kita takkan abadi

Hello sexy. Hello gurl. Oi.

if you want to know, i'm chewing on seaweed and having green tea right now. it's a way to satisfy my cravings for sushi you see, or basically japanese food. :D

oh well, today's labour day, holiday for everyone! :)
as for me, no more stress because i've finished my assignments and in two weeks' time i'll be having tests and all that. but then again, i shall not get into that.

remember the 'prank' call that i got two days ago? well he turned out to be a nice person to talk to. we clicked really well in the sense of personality. he's sensitive, cool and down to earth. welp, if you ask me, i can say that he has already gained a lil of my trust and friendship for that matter. but then there is just some slight problem here. actually it's just me i think, he might turn out to be Kel's friend. now that is crikey.

i secretly wanted to label him as my angel but it is still early for that. i mean there are still a lot of time and room to get to know him. i guess he approached me at the right time, just when i needed someone down to earth and sensitive to talk to. mebbe im just being a lil too emotional about this.

well, Kel hasn't shown his soft side. sometimes he gives a shit, sometimes he doesnt. well, come to think about it, he doesnt really show his affection most of the time. i really dont know whats up with him. he's smth wrong. he sent me some really perverted sms the other day.

he wrote: oi.. i need your help, feeling damn horny now! ya know any way to release it without jerkin off? damn ler. what you doin? i seriously horny. damn it. unless you reply me smth dirty.
i wrote: heck youre a bastard. im busy with my friends now. what the hell is wrong with you? im a busy woman.

this is disgusting and can you see if there is any respect in this? oh yeah and a very nice way to start a sms. lolz.
i really wanted to say sorry lah if i'm being potong stim but i'm just speaking my mind anyway.

on another incident..

i wrote: here's smth i wrote, i hope you like it. so small, left behind in love and time, the last drop so perilously close, to falling, strung out.
he wrote: know smth, sorry to tell you this but i dont understand a shit whatcha saying.. you know my english sucks right. can you explain it in simple english plz?.. thanks gurl.

okay, nice shot, i was telling myself. things just wont work out.
oh and really dandy ending to an sms. lolz.

he's at it again.
no sincerity. no appreciation. no affection. not sensitive. perverted.
alright, this is not directed to the general male population, it's just him ok?
but let's say if you take it personally, too bad for you so screw you. :)

that's it, i'm through with this. or through with him. either way.
the end.

you cannot break my back
for i have not just one
you cannot break my will
for it is not my own to give
you cannot take my life
because you could never recognize it
you cannot take my song
because you, taker of all
cannot help singing it.

[soundbites]
The Juliana Theory - White Days