i just noticed that on my front page i've got tons of lyrics in there isnt it? heh heh well... you people have to cope with it lah. sorry eh. i'll try to post up more entries, of course non lyrics. but dont you find them interesting?? some i can really relate to and some i just lurv their music! cehck them out if you can eh?

Again, im at my college's cyber cafe now. i did my assignment just now and i will be going to Baskin Robins later to have ice cream! yay! :) i just found out that every 31st day of every month, they will have some 31% off the icecream! hehehe.. i just have a sweet tooth, what can i say. :)

okayokay people, i gotha go right now as my friend is going there right now! chao chao friends!! :)

Pink
Just Like A Pill

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support, there's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills, they were different
Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support, there's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

I can't stay on your life support, there's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

Papa Roach
She Loves Me Not

When I see her eyes look into my eyes
Then I realize that she can see inside my head
So I close my eyes thinking that I could hide
Disassociate so I don't have to lose my head
The situation, is to adjatation if she cut me off
Would this be an amputation?

[Chorus:]
I don't know if I care
I'm the jerk, life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not!
Do you realize I won't compromise
She loves me not, loves me not!

Over the past five years I have shed my tears
I have drank my beers and watch my fingers fly away
Then until this day you still swing my way
But its sad to say sometimes she says she loves me not
But I hesatate to tell her I hate
This relationship I wanted to date this is over

[Chorus]
Life's Not Fair
I'm the jerk!

Line for line, ryhme for ryhme
Sometimes I be writin' all the goddam time
It's makin' me sick
Relationship is gettin' ill
This your stupid man
On the lil, could you feel
What I feel, what's the deal girl
We're tearin' up each others world
We should be in harmony boy and girl
That is a promise we made
Back in the day
You told me that things wouldn't be this way
I think we should work this out
'Cause all I didn't mean is to scream and shout

[Chorus]

Life's not fair!
Life's not fair!
Life's not fair!
I'm the jerk!
Life's not fair!
She loves me not!
Loves me not!

Fragging HOT!!!

gees, after i took my cold shower, still I felt refreshed but after a while i started sweating. My lippie is now a wee bit swollen as it will. Some dry thingies formed and i have to clean it, sprayed on some benzylkonium chloride. Gargled with antiseptic mouthwash and apply some lip gloss, then im done. :)

buckdich. currently having my period. eurgh. no wonder im feeling sleepy. better head for the bed cuz im lagging. have to wash kennel and wash some thingies.

Makin my way downtown
Walkin fast
Faces pass and I'm homebound
Starin blankly ahead
Just makin my way
Makin my way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd
Walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight

Its always times like these
When I think of you
And wonder if you ever think of me
Cause everythings so wrong
And I dont belong
Living in your precious memory

Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd
Walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight

Makin my way downtown
Walkin fast
Faces pass and I'm homebound
Staring blankly ahead
Just makin my way
Makin a way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
Cause you know I'd
Walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd
Walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
If I could just hold you tonight

A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

Don't Know Why - Norah Jones

Poked With A Needle

Actually I’m feeling very tired. These few months you can say that I have been complaining about not getting enough sleep. When I sleep, I can sleep all the way and can be really deep in my sleep. Having a few dreams here and there. I’m tired.

Today’s moon is almost full. I love it. The sky is so bright today, I really love it a lot. In some ways it reminds me of things. Lots of things. More like feeling lonely, isolated, grief, yearned and most of all, pain. Experiences that made you wiser and trials to make you learn to get up and be stronger.

Alright a change of topic eh? As you can see from the title, to tell you the truth, I got my lip pierced today. That’s the highlight. I watched the Hong Kong movie called ‘My Left Eye See Ghost’ with fellow course mates. It is funny and touching at the same time. I bumped into my regular gang and they were there to watch the same movie too. I didn’t expect that cuz they didn’t tell me. I’d want to watch Ben Afleck and Morgan Freeman in action for this movie coming out soon, not sure about the name but the movie is about some nuclear weapon thingy. Not to mention the hilarious Sorority Boys. : )

Coming back to the piercing experience. It’s no biggie actually. I pierced it once and I have pierced it twice this time. Really its nothing. Last time I went and did it on the day before my birthday. If you have a lip piercing, you must take really good care of it. It may swells. You can't eat anything spicy and on top of that, no eggs or seafood. Gargle your mouth with Oral-B, basically anti mouth wash without alcohol. Buy an antiseptic spray which contains Benzylkonium Chloride. No smoking, avoid lip contacts and kissing and avoid drinking alcohol. The healing time is 8-10 weeks. For more information, you could simply just go to a search engine and type in ‘Lip Piercing’ or ‘Piercing Aftercare’ or go to this website, and go to aftercare and then click on oral piercing. You could simply browse around the website, it is very informative and professional.
People always ask me the usuals, ‘Did it hurt?’ well to tell you the truth, why not you go and try it out yourself? And i dont know why people make such a fuss about it. And some people think its cool thats why they do it. such posers.
As for today the lip piercing, why did I do it again, erm, I don’t really know why. I’m just.. well, maybe not jaded, but twisted. To me, piercings are a sense of self-expressive and it is a self-identity. In the long run, as for me, it tend to be like some sort of habit, of course not over to the extreme. I’m not obsessive, mind you. I’m just a plain freak. I find piercings and earrings are really intriguing, interesting and facinating objects and it really attract my attention. I love them. With all the love that I have for piercings and earrings, I know and I have to be realistic and I have to be sober/conscious of what I’m doing.
Somehow piercings for me is like a release of tension or stress. Somehow it is to a certain extent, a memory of something. In fact, I have an ear stretching. In case you don’t know what ear stretching is you can, again simply go to a search engine or to be more specific go to a piercings/body modification/tattoo website and then type in ear stretching. Infinite Body do have details on stretching as well, you could look that up.
Here's a picture of it. check it out.

I love my piercings. If you do have any questions that you think I might help you out, you can always drop me a line at wormthugy@hotmail.com :)

By the way hotmail these days are SO darn full of junk mails. The filter thing doesn’t seem to work. Sigh!

Well it’s coming to 11pm already, better go online and post this thing up before both of my eyes closed up. Besides I think my hair is dry by now, I can go to sleep then. Yay.

[Quote]
It's not enough to have a good mind. The main thing is to use it well - Rene Descartes

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face they day

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Savage Garden - Crash and Burn

It's Weekend!!!

As for friday night, i didnt go anywhere except for accompanying my mom to her friend's place. Talked on the phone with my god brother. He could be a real good lecturer you know! buckdich. hehe. I've decided not to go to class on saturday morning cuz it will definitely be boring. That refers to the lesson itself and the subject itself which is morale studies. good god. 7.15 in the morning, i SHOULD be sleeping but then my cousin woke me up by her usual bangings and knockings. she's like a big foot. loud enough for you to notice her. calling out to her dog and leaving the curtains open up for sunlight plus leaving the door open to sound pollution which can effect my ears while i sleep! got me all groggy for a while. i couldnt be bothered so i went to my mom's room and switched on the air conditioner. Yippie! it was heaven there.. cuz as a bonus, there's a Bomba TV right in front of the bed!! pure relaxation, the room was mine for that time :) i remembered god bro mentioned abt 'Invasion America' cartoon so i just popped by TV3. Hmm was it TV3 or TV2? i really dont know.. i was half asleep and blurry at that time heyyy!!! went out for breakfast not long after the show. That day i wrote letters to my friend Dennycia who went back to Auz already and another guy. Going to send the letters or rather cards on monday.

The bon odori thing was a bit blur. Couldnt recall the actual incidents, which happened first and which is the next. This year was a bit drag. My friend couldnt find a parking space that we had to park in front of babylon boom boom, walked all the way there and everybody was sweating like hell. such a HUGE crowd. i think im not going to go there for next year. pretty frusfrating when it was so packed and its like in a sardin can. gosh! you got full bar on your cellphone but then you cant call out. Me and my friends left the place and then went to Seahorse to have dinner. it was around 11 something at night. you would consider as supper isnt it? i had western food and they even ran out of chips! how could they do that to me?! that's my favourite lehhh!
Got to Park Royal and then wandered around the room for a while to wait for the others to arrive then we headed down to the beach and opened a bottle of wain. chit chat and joked around a bit we then stood by the shore and let the waves hit our legs. you can see the hair on the legs dancing! eek! lol. looking at the sky with half and semi full moon with some stars is GREAT. reminds me of things and made me really realxed. Heh.. one of us eventually fell asleep and we decided to go back to the hotel room and sleep. all i know is that i cant really sleep, i was stuck in the moddle of the bed consists of 3 people. gees...... in the middle of that i suddenly felt that there are pressue or rather a thing with weight on my right leg. it was my friend who put her leg on my right leg. i tried to shook her off nicely but it didnt work! in the end i just simply put her leg away lah. that worked, hmm.. simple as that! lol. not to mention the snoringSs and i wasnt the only who cant really sleep, i woke up in the morning, Rishant was awake already, he can even tell me who snored first and then who. pity the fella also, he was sleep on the same bed with the idiot, the freak & the stupid - WeiSheng. hahah! took my shower quickly and then we left for breakfast. when we returned we headed for the beach again, some of them went for jet skiing, basically the couples. how romantic! (kononnya!!) i was at the beach side, sitting on the wooden chinese old times chairs talking with Rishant and taking care of properties. i think i have turned a bit dark sitting under the sun even though i have applied sunblock. hmmmmm... Rishant is really a funny guy and he could yak man, i assure you that!! he even dared me to go up to a caucasian, heh it never worked, i dared him to an old lady instead! ngekngek... ;) we saw a bunch of kl people sitting around us, drinking and smoking. i dont know, they basically dont really have a life. all they know is to drink and to smoke. acting like they are really cool. maybe its because they are from kl and they have got no beaches and stuff like that, all the do is to go clubbing and they think its cool, becuase its their culture. im glad i am me. as the penangite and as everything that i am.
We had pizza as our lunch, YAY! we tried out the sausage thingy, it wasnt so good actually. just okay, nothing SO special about it. I really rather go for stuff-crust. trust me on this issue. ;)
Went to Ted's house later on. I was competing with my good friend, Suat Ling who will be the highest for swinging. No, we were at the playground, you know the swings?! ;p She won cuz she's the daredevil. hehe.. We watched Lilo & Stich.. as we were half way through and everybody was asleep and some were half asleep. i was the half asleep, then i slept for around an hour's time which Ted claimed. WeiSheng was playing PS continously for ages until they left the place around 6 something in the evening. fuhlah the fella is crazy. Dangerous fella.
I need to wash my hair tomorrow and have a thorough shower. Welp, have to wake up 6.30 in the morning so i have to sign off now. The day ended with me typing on the keyboard, updating my blog and smelling really awful.

[Soundbites]
Roswell's theme from Dido.
By The Way - Red Hot Chilli Peppers (check out the mtv!)

[Quote]
When the eagles are silent, the parrots begin to jabber - Sir Winston Churchill.

Cyber cafe

i'm currently at my college's cyber cafe. pretty boring over here. i surpose having my friend sitting next to me makes the whole scene less boring, maybe. hmm lemme see, maybe i'll send one email to Sami. just for the heck of it. i've got nothing better to do here, still waiting.. waiting... waiting, waiting.

am going for the bon odori thingy tomorrow then later on im going to park royal and stay overnight there. hehe.. well i really got to get going now. you people out there have a lovely weekend eh? take good care and i shall catch up with you guys soon. :)

for those who want to go to the gig you can always inform me about it. thank you!

SonicTheraphy 3

Date: 3rd of August
Time: 7.30pm - 11.00pm
Venue: Babylon Boom Boom, Penang
Ticket: RM15 + Fizzy drink
Featuring: The Wreck, Gaugepit, Marijane, Hearts on fire, Symposium, Soundcraft One, Mandatory.
(Strictly 18 and above. No drugs allowed.)

This gig is going to be massive. Go and support our local music industry. If anything you are not sure of, pls do not hesitate to contact me, wormthugy@hotmail.com

Rock on!

[A Song To Sing]

Goodbye four leaf clovers
Hello gone awry
Don't cry the fight ain't over
Unless you let it pass you by

I'm looking for a song to sing
I'm looking for a friend to borrow
I'm looking for my radio
So I might find a heart to follow
I've never been just longing for your loving
I've never been just wearing down to nothing
I've never been just looking for a reason
So that maybe you'd be thinking of me

all that I have found in reason
Is reason just to not believe
When all that you have left is treason
It's treason just to let it be

These blue yonder dreams and second hand shoes
You're so far gone that you live to loose
And it's too late to go home all alone
You're the tar in that old cigar
And the worn out cable on a cable car
And you're too tired to admit you've got to choose

I really really like this song. it is telling what i think and what i feel. i hope you people out there find this song interesring cuz i do, thats why i post it up my blog. i love it. been singing along with it. enjoy. :)

60's Zombie

another day, another story. had to wake up at 6.30 but then got up at 7, darn i was a lil late thanks to the jams and stuff. i hate morning class. thank god the lecturer is good and nice. the whole day was just fine, i think. nothing big and nothing too small. just fine. i told myself that i have to study really hard in order to pass all my subjects this semester, i took up 11 subjects by the way. pretty shittie i know but heck in the long run, its good i think. i MUST pass! but then again i really dislike one lecturer who teaches us purchasing fundamentals. the sixties zombie with a twist of freakiness and weirdness. SCARY, thats all i can say about him. i still couldnt absorb what he taught in class, i need to catch up soon.

i didnt really notice anything around me lately. i've been cool about everything and its like i dont really give a shit about anything too. im in pain. im dead. or rather i feel dead.

well anyway havent been getting enough sleep lately, i REALLY need the beauty sleep.

[Quote]
Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you help them to become what they are capable of being - Goethe

it finally worked! thank blogger.com!!

well okay been surfing around the friendtest thingy websites.. i need to go off now as my god bro will call me later in 5.
catch up with you guys later. see you all.

i did came online for the past two days, but i just couldnt fix the template. this is definitely not the template that i want! but heck anyway, i really dont feel like updating my blog so i didnt. you probabaly might wonder why. there's nothing really. been busy with college. its great to go back to college actually... really nice :) get to see lecturers and friends!! i have been getting modules, i mean THICK modules home.. kinda frusfrating, need to stack them, arrange them basically. nice to be busy again.

i did bump into Eugene coupla times. pretty cool to bump into him again. oh and Pemmy.. cute and charming dude i might say. went for puffs with him and had coupla small chat with him, nice to be able to talk to him again too. Got to know Jasdev, another fella who's cute. both of them are the computer wizard. the morons!!!! :P

well, nothing much about me. life has been boring. i just wished that things would be better..

couldnt come online to update my blog for two days already. have been busy really.

on friday a friend who came back from Langkawi called me up in the morning and we went out on the afternoon. we were shopping, chilling out and basically for me i walked a lot. Meet up with Hsin and she passed me the flyers and (OH & AH!!) Silverchar's singles!!!! i thank her so much for that. *hugs hugs* later that day, without going back to my house i went and watched 'SnowDogs' with a whole bunch of friends. not to mention those lovey dovey couples. haha how i envy them. ;p the movie is great, its funny, i like it. Nando's for dinner and hung out at Sega. had some quality girlfriend time with a few friends. cracking up jokes and yak all the way to the maximum. its great to bump into friends, had small talks with them and leave the table. pretty cool. i wonder how much of alcohol for gin. hmm... when i got home my hunnie called and we talked for ages until i nearly slept in the phone. i was way tired and needed the rest. during the conversation, that was the time when hunnie told me that he will come and see me on sunday. YAY!!!!!!!!!!! i was excited. :D ( PS: Today is Sunday already!! )

in the morning, i woke up at 5 something. i think my mom tried to wake me up twice and the third time i was annoyed and i seriously need to get up. i dragged myself and rubbed my eyes while i headed for the bathroom, not knowing if im going to fall asleep again. sigh! wonder why i wake up so early? that is because i was going to Kangar. if case you dont know, i accompanied my mom there to see someone. good god, i was blur and intensely sleepy. i can sense my skin drying up and darkcircles are forming. eeeekk! didnt sleep much during the journey cuz i couldnt make mself comfortable and the sun came up and mom kept on asking me for directions. sheesh. the whole day was a drag. before coming back to my house, we dropped by fettes park western food. yummy! i had fish gordan bleu! CHEEZE!! i sound cheesy, dont i? i thank my hunnie pie for calling me. i love you!

well anyway enough about that. that two days i was terribly tired. even now i feel a lil bit sleepy. i couldnt sleep after i woke up this morning, althogh i tried to but i just could. blardy cousin was banging and knocking everything down. she walks like a giant. you can feel the vibration of the floor. damn! freekin eejit. BUCKDICH... bloody weather. fraking hot. ARGH! i might need to drop by Dennycia's cuz i need to pass her something. she's goingback to day though. gonna miss her company. have a safe journey my friend and all the best in everything you do! :)

most probabaly i will have interesting stuff to say after today. *grins* heheheh......

i might not be able to post up anything cuz my class starts on monday and i hate mondays!! not forgeting that the first class starts at 8am! BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!

[SoundBites]
Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles
Elana Davis - I'm Free
Norah Jones - Dont Know Why (brilliant!)

anybody knows where i can get vcd or dvd for the movie GREASE? starring John Travolta. i know its an old movie but hey i need to see it! Help people.

hmm overall, i had a good day. Pleasant day i might say.

Good nite everyone! *huggies for all*

AH! I just got back. Dead tired. Okay I’m just going to make it into a summary.
I woke up around 9am. I was about to go and take my shower.. dragging myself out of the bed actually, the next thing I know is that Philippe called from Terengganu.. somewhere in between Kuantan and Terengganu like what he claimed. Nice and sweet fella. Very sincere kinda person. *BIG Hugzzz!* thank you for calling!

I took a quick shower then off I go to college, before that stopped by the bank and then had breakfast with my mom. I double checked my results today and I passed every subjects. Its official people. :) I’m very happy indeed. I then enrolled for semester two, bumped into a whole bunch of friends at college. Can you believe that some people think that the word that I’ve written on my hand with a marker pen is for real? Hehehe It’s quite deceiving. But the highlight is, I bumped into Eugene. I was sitting in the library and he just came into the library and without waving at him to ask him to come over, he walked to my direction automatically. We had a small chat then off he went for his class and left me a lil flushed. My friend said that I looked like I was drunk. Haha. I’ll take it as a compliment. He’s my ultimate idol. He’s the person who I really consider cool. He’s not good looking but I’ll say he’s hip. I don’t know hip as in my own term that is! He was wearing a black tattoo shirt and his black cargo pants. Different thing about him after I had my holiday is that his hair is now, of course, longer and he doesn’t spiked them up anymore. Instead he puts on gel and makes it look greasy and a body to it. Something new, something less bad-boy looking, something decent. Anyway later I went to the cafeteria with bunch of friends. We were chatting, cranking jokes then the ultimate idol showed up again.. He went to the convenience store and then bought a soya bean drink, he sat down on a table and he was alone! Here comes my chance of talking to him again! Hehe ;) I approached him and we had some chatting going on, he was complaining about how his partner wouldn’t cooperate with him and trust me, I know how it feels. I know who the partner is, she is a pain on the neck, big time. I understood what he was trying to say. I got flushed down the drain again. haha. Its great to go back to college again! :)

After that I went out with a buddy of mine and we went some sort of like shopping. I bought a fisherman’s hat since I was having a bad hair or in the future that I will have a bad hair day. I didn’t put it on though.

At night, I went out for dinner with my family without taking my shower. Eewwwww!! Later I went to wash my hair and braided my hair. Pretty pathetic. Its going to take an hour’s time to perm it in order have waves on my hair but instead, I braid them up then tmr I’ll take the rubber bands off and see the effects. Heh we’ll see, we’ll see...

My hunnie pie went to Pacific to buy guitars.. rather look at the guitars. He’s a guitarist. Still not home yet so he aint calling me just yet.
Hsin’s coming over to my place tomorrow morning. hmm wonder if I can wake up or not. she’s so fragging nice, she bought me Silverchair’s singles and something something, I think. Am not assuming, but we’ll see. God! I think im going to look like a panda. Shittie.

Going off now, waiting for my hunnie pie to call. Its so darn late already, im getting sleepy. *Yawns* my braided hair! Eurgh, this is not the style that I have in mind but nevermind-lah. I’ll just do something about it. Peace out people.

[SoundBites]
try out Silverchair’s Maybe I’m A Believer, quite rocking!

Be angry,
Be happy,
Be different,
Be yourself.

im typing this for the freaking second time. i hate using this computer. It’s fucked up.

currently im having a fag right now. It’s my brother's. mom's out, cousin's up and im in! ;)

i saw a mtv just now on the TV. The male singer, i mean rapper is wearing this dangly diamond necklace, its very noticeable under a black fubu jersey with baggy pants. He has this bandana tied up his bold head with the knot on the side. And bracelets or rather chains and rapping all the way. Looks cool huh? Not to me, it’s funny. As for the female, she's fake, unnatural, trying hard to look and be sexy. I mean hey what’s on their minds?? Why are they willing to be influenced by the westerners and not having their own characteristics and not having their own styles? Be a trendsetter. That’s what a fashion magazine would tell you to do. Be yourself. I think that is true. The hongkies these days are trying hard to be the westerners.. is it the 'in' thing? i don’t get it. you will always be who you are, you can’t change your root. that’s unless you go for a case of reincarnation. i don’t get the messages that they are trying to send to their listeners. what is it all about? It’s all about love, how bad they feel inside when they got dumped, how faithful and how sincere they are towards their love item. i mean grow up, get out of there, if it feels so bad why wouldn’t they take actions. i only listen to Faye Wong and Chang Zhen Yue. they rock big time. why don’t they write something else besides love? im not saying that love is a bad thing and that they shouldn’t be writing about that but instead write something new, something exciting.. something everybody can relate to. you know about life, how cruel life can be and stuff. Love is just a part of it.
these days if you notice, they come up with bands like LMF.. well that’s all i know actually. People these days are pathetic. They come up with lame bands.. I mean boy bands. Useless. They never last. By the way just to let you guys know that I support the local English music scene. Im interested in going to gigs and more gigs for me. Yay! There’s nothing more exciting than being there and seeing them play live and actually there to witness and to experience the feeling and the crowd. Its fantastic.

My god brother called just now. Very nice of him. He’s getting well and he couldn’t get out of the house for the coming two weeks. Ngek no movies for him! Sorry for the interruption though. Get well soon eh! :) I’ll be expecting your call one of these days.

My darling hunnie pie called just now. He’s SO sweet. And cute too… I’ll never get enough of him. Always trying to be loud and macho with me… but heheh it never really worked. [Man = Ego] understandable. *nods*

We are all pink on the inside - Pink

i dont know why but you always make me cry. (Hey! it rhymes!!)

i got up this morning and i found myself crying for no reason. maybe i hate everything thats happening in my life. sometimes i wished that when i wake up i will wake up and open my eyes and see the someone i love next to me. sleeping beside me. maybe that will never happen in my life. when im feeling down and depressed i would trash the place, blowing off my own eardrums, scream on the top of my lungs and cry. makes me such a big cry baby huh?

that was just a lil thought in my head. a lil something i want to say.

i found out my mom bought me some 'tau hua'.. what do u call that, erm soya bean jelly!! :)

just had my regular daily dosage of chocolate. wheeeeee! i love chocolate. reminds me Damien and Scott. Damien likes them, like i do but then Scott.. heheh he doesnt want me to take it. he said its making me fat. hahah ;) FACT: Chocolate can help tooth decay you know!

i didnt get plastered totally. instead i got all worked up and the next thing i know is that i was on my bed and some transparent liquid thing came out of my eyes. weird, whats that? i did had coupla beers and fags actually.. but then i dont know. mom got back home, bought some food for me and then off i went to my room, i danced to the tunes of express 2 - lazy, britney spears(YUCK!) - latest single, i dont know. i slept after that. until an hour ago. i got up, switched on the radio, listen to it and was dancing again to tunes like ashanti feat. fat joe - whats love and.. hmm, i forgot about it. i was still half asleep! i dragged myself to take my shower of the day and here i am. i smell good. hehe :)

i didnt go to college today. i couldnt get myself out of the bed. i was feeling sick. like i am stoned for the whole day. hmm i havent really tried that and how would i know anyway?! if my life were to keep on going like that, im gonna die of too much boredom or die of being numb. today is so meaningless. i did nothing useful today. buckdich. feel like screaming right now. AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

i REALLY need to finish up the book that im reading. its called. GRRRLS - Viva Rock Divas. i've finished reading about Courtney Love, Debbie Smith, Sonya Aurora Madan(both of them are from the band, Echobelly) and currently about Bjork. hmm.. costs me lots of trouble to get that, the cash and you can only get it in kl. i thank god cuz my sister is in kl.. heheh

i got a friend, male friend who's hmm i dont know how to predict about him. he's weird. i mean.. erm, weird. started flirting with me when i first met him online.. we were okay, we went out coupla times. it wasnt anything serious. the few times.. we went out, he just HAVE to have alcohol. i dont get it why. if you are a guy who is reading this, please tell me why. you see, you guys are going out on a date and it wasnt a night outing or something or clubbing but why does alcohol have to be involved? well the first time we went out we went clubbing and that is okay. drinking is not the right thing to do on dates. you can simply ask any love doctor or anyone who is an expert in dating games. i once read it somewhere on the net and i find it true. haha he's an alcoholic if i may say. in addition, he's the kind of person who doesnt talk the talk. if you know what i mean. i bumped into him online and again he was asking me whether we could meet up again. Hmm..

just checked my email account and i got an email from Sami from UAE. he is a dear friend. someone who i have fancy him all this while. he's one hell of a guy and he is the oldest person that i know thru the net. he's the first male that i bumped into and still keeping in touch with him. we often lost touch but in the end, we managed to find each other, its amazing though. usually i find him. i could get a Ms. Vain for saying that. im not sure if i want to reply him email. he said he's worried. a snippit of the email:-
hey there cutie pie! i dont know where you've been or what you've been upto but i hope it's that you're too busy to reply and nothing serious that happened to you cause i'm worried as hell...i e-mailed you and you didn't reply, i tried to stay coo' about it but it's been a week now so that's enough!!! how have you been and where were you!??! i missed you, i truly did...i want you to take good care of yourself, please reply this time!

oh well i dont know..

im going off to feed my dog now. she's hungry already. take care all. be true to yourself. cheers! :)

i dont know i got screwed up with the time zone thing. ARGH
why they dont have the word 'Malaysia' there? to make things easier? when you go to some sites and you want to purchase something, its extra difficult to do so especially you're outside of the states, UK, Canada and huge places like that. such a descrimination.

i just woke up and i thought its around 8 smth or 9 smth the most.. but its 11am in the morning. usually i dont wake up around that time. anyway its raining. i love it! no wonder i overslept. its a good thing. i have been sleepless these days. especially when i wake up in the morning, i really truly want to go back to sleep but the sad part is that i cant. i just cant. dont know why.

damn i seriously have to cut down on the foods. you know yesterday night i have this craving for having uncle's burger. i took the burger And my light dinner. thats pretty shittie man. double my dosage. Yikes! oh im sure Jon is very envious of me by now. he LOVES uncle's burger and the same goes to Alvin. :) i love ya guys. be good and stay in school!

life can be boring at times. im having my holiday now and will be going back next week. no wait.. i need to go back today i think. for the recruiment of GREASE. sigh.. im not sure about it yet. but on Thursday i must go back to enrol.

enough for now. im gonna get plastered. hehe. like what WeiLin have suggested. :)

ARGH... been trying to correct some things but i got screwed up coupla times and i got disconnected for coupla times as well. shittie you know these days the connection is so damn lousy!! ARGH!!! sorry out to WeiLin cuz didnt get my full attention when you're having a hard time.. im blogging man!!! lol.. anyway apologies eh mate :P oh and CHEER UP!

shittie am currently having this writer's block.

hmm i think i'll just go and call up my darling and then continue with this tomorrow. peace out.

okay first message, need to say something interesting. but im the sort of person that Damien would categorized as 'Lame'.. hey fuck it like he said, lame people click with lame people. screw you Damien! ;p no worries Scott has whacked you on my behalf. im proud of my Hunnie. :) hehe im so in vain.

Yesterday after a long and deep-in-my-heart conversation with my darling, i finally managed to open up his mind to a whole new pespective. i strongly believe what i think is the 'right' thing. i like it when a couple is honest towards each other, it brings closeness, sincerity and trust. for that, i want to thank my darling, Scott for making the whole statement come true and keeping it real. i am sincere towards you and nothing's going to break our faith for each other. i love you.

sometimes we are so engross with other people's thinking and point of views and eventually forget about our own beliefs and what we used to think. there is a saying from 'Save The Last Dance' which Julia Stiles said, 'Why do we have to live up to other people's expectations instead of our own?' as long as we follow our heart and we think what we are doing is correct, then everything's fine. we need not have to care so much about what other people think about what you're doing.

i used to have a friend who criticize me alot whenever we talk on the phone. i think he is 7 years older than i am. he thinks that he is the adult and that he really have to act like one especially to someone who's 7 years younger than he is. the fact is that he thinks he's the only one who got pressure and have problems. that is not fair. its a decrimination. i hate it. i tolerated him for coupla times and i didnt manage to save my little heart from hurting. he kept on doing that and finally i hold up my fist and gave the wall a tight punch. i have decided not to call him anymore for good. and to get out of his circle of friends. oh no wait, was i categorized as a friend for him? hmmm...
well sad to say he is another person that i know who judge a book by its cover. or rather used to know. i've had enough of his point of views and i find it disgusting and self-centered. i've always tried to be sincere in each and every conversation that have but he seems very impossible to reach, or maybe he just wouldnt let good things to happen to him. i think sometimes you want to be nice to the person but then the person just ignores it.. not just that, instead they give you a smack on the face. now how does it feels? pretty frusfrating. i've learnt from my lessons.. the hard way i think. well if they dont appreicate it, screw it then. i know what im doing and i know its right but if you dont like it, just buzz off. im better off alone without it.

im listening to some Natalie Imbruglia now. i just cant get enough of 'wrong impression', 'sunlight', 'beauty on the fire', 'satelite' and 'do you love'. hmm did you know that she was once Lenny Kravitz's gf? in short, she's Lenny's ex-gf. hah fact man. she got really big googly eyes though, pretty. :)

i bought Celine Dion's A New Day Has Come cd for my god brother, Santhanan. (hey! how ya like it!) unbelievable i might say, my friends were laughing hard when i paid for it, even the cashier asked me whether i am sure about that purchase! hahah.. anyway to cheer up my god brother, just doing him a lil favour. i hope he's doing fine and resting in the house at the moment. he had this nose operation done without telling me.. :( (how could you bro?!) anyway you hanging there big guy and get well soon! *hugs* (Note: BIG bear hugs for ya)

he reminds me of pizza. no you morons! he doesnt look like a pizza!! in fact, he likes pizzas, like i do :) gee, have this urge of having pizza now. oh oh! the latest is the sausage pizza thingy.. quite mouth-watering i must say.. hehe.

okay enough of 'interesting' stuff to say for today. gotha sign off now, cousin is coming back anytime soon. gonna get lectured by her again if she found out that im using her computer. she's a stingy old virgin. the best part is that she is still single and available! anybody??? i could do some personal ads about her though. in that case i could get rid of her quickly.. ngek ngek! ;) oops!! i mean get her a decent husband and form a family. ahem ahem.

rock on people. be true to yourself. be good. cheers!

ps- Hunnie, i love you. expecting your call later tonight eh! ;)