Rain Is Gooooodd.

Sometimes rain doesnt always bring depression. Rain brought me smiles today.

I played in the rain for a bit today. I could feel rain drops on my head and on my hair. It feels good. The moisture in the air and rain drops on my skin. It's magical. I felt like I was a kid again. A kid who's sucking on a strawberry lollipop and easily amused by the little things. Leave me in the garden and I wouldnt mind playing with myself alone.

I managed to find a picture of the lizard that I caught yesterday. Here's a pic for you to have an idea of how Lizzy looks like.


This is a skink that belongs to the lizard family. It's called a Five-lined Skink. The size of Lizzy is around one and 1/2 inch.. err supposedly longer but like I said, I accidentally broke her tail. Sowee!! I got to know that her tail will grow back but it wont look as nice as before. Oh well, my bad, tskk. In the picture, you can see the color on its body is pretty much the same like Lizzy. It is somehow related to the Blue-Tongue Skink whereby they are a bit fatter in shape. Im not too sure about the color of Lizzy's tongue but I'd be sure to find out one of these days. ;)

So while half way reading through about skinks and writing this entry, a friend called.. supposedly, someone that I just got to know. Then the more I talked to him, the more he resembles someone that I met way long time ago. Hahah! What the heck. I asked him a few questions and it turned out that he IS that someone that I met way back when I was still underaged. Man it's such a small world though he's way down south and Im way up north. It feels good to be able to talk to him again. Thats my warmth for tonight to keep me company. It felt kinda old school. It puts a smile on my face. It's sort of magical innit? Aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh...

After I got back from dinner thingy with yee sang as the first and most important dish. I know it's kind of late compared to you guys out there! The difference is that we have salmon fish instead of the normal ones. Heh. (Pics taken by fellow blogger - Minishorts). Suddenly I got this post dinner feelings. I realized that I just need to go out more often. I need the warm company. Then I'd be all smiling again and feeling fine.

Well, I've already had warmth in me. I sure hope that it could get me through the cold damp night. Or else I guess I just have to keep myself warm with my everso faithful comforter and some emotional yet soothing voice of Jeff Buckley or Enigma.

May the warmth be with you too.

Gee, it's Friday night.. erm, technically Saturday morning already. *grins to self*

Damn go to sleep, Likki.

[soundbites]
The Sundays - I Can't Wait

Food Poisoning.

I could have still be sleeping right now. I woke up to pain. Pain on my stomach. I went to the bathroom. Sweat it out. Im feeling much better now. I suspect myself having food poisoning. I've been having too many times of frequent visits to the bathroom. Not good. I didnt get enough sleep. My body is tired. I want to collapse on my bed.

While sweating it out in the bathroom, I thought to myself that I think I could qualify to become a junkie. I got myself glued to mellow music non-stop, not moving around much, lighting up fags to get the adrenaline rush inside, constantly popping candy into my mouth to get sugar rush, skipping meals, lie down on my bed most of the time not doing anything and to sit in front of the pc downloading songs and nonstop clicking on my mouse and tapping on my keyboard. Oh, I found the Tshirt that I was wearing two or was it three weeks ago still lying somewhere in the room. It has got ice cream stain on it.

In a way it's good, Im bleeding lazy and screwed up anyway.

Wooo, I know there's so many ppl out there wanting to gimme advice on this.

But I've got a frigging license yo!

Oh shit, I gotta go take a shit. Im getting goosebumps already!

[soundbites]
Mazzy Star - Flowers In December

Dark Wave.

I caught a small lizard today. Not your ordinary house lizard (cicak in malay) but it has got a shiny exterior to show. Err but I broke his tail, poor thing. I call her/him Lizzy, short for lizard. Hahah, I got to amuse myself sometimes.

I picked up a snail yesterday, a small one and not long ago, I found two huge ones in my garden today. *evil laugh* There's one snail that I noticed, it has got four tentacles! Mating season? His/her young? Err. Hmmmmm.

Oh I just did a lil read up on snails and it is no surprise that a snail has got two pairs of tentacles. The eyes are the upper longer pair. The bottom shorter pair is used for smelling and feeling its way around. But damn I didnt notice that before I did this read up.

Chrysanthemum is such a pretty flower. But nothing can substitude daisy and dandelion. Eh, erm, what was my point again? Ohhh yes, err, I've got small stalks of chrysanthemum in a small transparent vase. It's placed next to my pc now, they're so pwetty.

I took out the plug for my stretching. For no reason of course. I plan to take out my lip stud as well, for a few days. Im in need of a new place that I could pierce.

For the past two days, I've been sitting in front of the pc downloading songs. Been downloading songs from Mazzy Star, A Perfect Circle, The Sundays, Tom Petty, Mogwai and Nitin Sawhney just to name a few. I need motivation to get me out of the house. I bought a Vidal Sassoon brush, bracelet and earrings on impulse. I think I should start picking up that book that I bought which is written by Jackie Collins and start reading it.

I dont have a life as to the reason why I am currently debating with an almost stranger about country being mainstream. He's the one not agreeing with me that country is mainstream. Now talking about American Academy of Music (AAM) being crap and my so called definition of mainstream. Oh and now he's talking about real jazz and real recordings in New Orleans as he was there for a few months. Yada yada yada.. lolz.

One minute he asked me to stay in touch and another minute he took off asking me to go to hell. I contradict myself like shit he said.

It's funny seeing that he's like the clown running his own show and thinks that his jokes are funny and that he laughs at his own jokes. He contradict himself like shit. Hahah.

Look outside, it's drizzling. I couldnt sleep.

[soundbites]
Do As Infinity - Oasis

Tripping.

I could sense moisture in the air as I was waking up this morning. I didnt wanna leave my bed, Im just too comfy in it. Bahhh, I got out of bed anyway.

I woke up just to catch a glimpse of my mini cooper guy with big bright eyes. It's a morning thing.

You know it rained and it is cloudy.

I am moody.

Am I going to be like yesterday? Only had one meal a day and diarrhoea at night?

Im gonna get plastered. Pass me the drugs.

[soundbites]
Jeff Buckley - Mojo Pin (live at Glastonbury)

Pretty Things

It rained just now. My mood went downwards. I thought of him. I felt calm and serene. I drove very slowly. The rain has always been like a theraphy for me. He's always been like a theraphy for me.

Rain is good. Rain is pretty.

Do you still remember him? Because I do. I still do after all this while. Long December by Counting Crows reminds me of him.

I am not sure as to why I always hold on to little things in life. I guess Im just plain naive. Sometimes I think I dont give a damn about the little things or rather the big things. Sometimes Im just plain numb. Or perhaps Im just plain forgetful. Getting old maybe?

Oh well, I had such a great time with him. I was hypnotized by him. A few days ago, I was experiencing that kind of trance and aura that he potrays. I could have swoon on the spot but I stood firm and when I finally collapsed, the sun was shining and the road outside was getting busy with kids going to school and adults going to work.

I miss that and I want more of that please.

Though it's not perfect, I'd say that it was beautiful. I would cherish it.

I dont ask for much, Im easily amused. Tickle me and then I'd be happy all over again as I dont plan to dwell on my own depression. But the people who plays the dating game are just plain sorearses.

Sometimes I think it's the warm company that keeps me happy and sane.

Now lemme go light up one fag to keep me warm.

Hungry!

[soundbites]
Red House Painters - Have You Forgotten

Amuse-Gueule.

Today marks the day I amused myself again with my own so called creative ability to engage in a conversation that amused the other party as well. I havent had that kind of feeling in a very very long time.

Im officially a stoner.

My angel came back to me. My angel came home to me.

lying all alone and restless.
unable to lose this image.
sleepless, unable to focus on anything but your surrender.
tugging a rhythm to the vision that's in my head.
tugging a beat to the sight of you lying
so delighted with your new understanding.
there's something about a little evil that makes that unmistakable noise i was hearing,
that unmistakable sound i know so well.
spent and sighing with that look in your eye.
spent and sweating with a look on your face like
sweet revelation.
sweet surrender.
thinking of you.
thinking of you.
sweet revelation.
sweet surrendering.

Thinking of You by A Perfect Circle

Leafhopper.

I woke up in a really strange state of mind. I started crying.

Ever cried when you first wake up in the morning? Realization: it felt good, it is sad but it felt good again so you continued crying till your eyeballs are about to pop.

Sometimes I'd hope that it didnt happen at all, or something else happened instead. Then it hit me that I am still holding on to that something.

Few days ago, I was happy, I felt good about myself. A few days after that, I felt the total opposite.

I am scared.

oh look, wind blowing strongly, dried leaves flying in the air. It feels like autumn.

[soundbites]
Smashing Pumpkins - Eye

night dump.

currently having a night fag. friend just went back home. im left alone again. err not really. i have my pet doggie sleeping next to me now and soft music playing. sometimes i wish that he'd pop up right in front of my house for a short visit.

i was having lunch at tnb and then hung out for a bit at the canteen. sometimes i wish that im not on holidays now. i want to go back and study. i want to read and i want to attend classes. for once, let me be occupied with something meaningful. i shouldnt dwell on thoughts and idling around. but its not like i dont want to find a job. damn, why the hell am i explaining myself here?

man, i need miracle.

lunch was okay. we were constantly singing last goodbye in between silent moments. i bumped into another friend who used to study in college. very charming dude, bumped a fag with him and had a private tete-a-tete with him. i talked to him about him. the question is will i ever manage to talk to him? he seems to be shutting me out.

how could he deny me? who the heck do i turn to when i needed someone to talk? who to turn to when i wanted to say something about that? how about that day when i was crying out my eyes and my nose was so stuck that i had to use my mouth to breathe for almost half an hour? what if i was desperately in need of someone to talk to?

im petrified.

help. i think i need theraphy.

i cant stop looping jeff buckley's last goodbye and there's a scene in the video that reminds me so much of him.

oh well, what can i do?

i guess i'll just have to sleep it off.

Morning Dump.

*laughs* That's a funny title.

Chinese New Year is approaching and my pc table is still in a big mess. Grrrr.
My 2002 diary is still lying there, as well as my whole bunch of miscellaneous cds. Garh, Im going mad. Am searching for some motivation now.

I went and cut my hair yesterday, managed to catch a movie in the new cinema gsc in gurney and ate sushi. Yesterday I was running errands and driving the whole day. Must get my baby a shower and feed this big baby with petrol today or else it would refuse to work. :/

Shit, I thought to myself. Coldplay was playing while I was bumping a fag with a friend of mine who was in dire need of a ciggarette. I sipped my raspberry frap and suddenly I couldnt help to think about him. Hahah. Am I not a wuss?

Anyway I woke up early no thanks to my annoying white fluffy doggie who barks at nothing and everything. *shakes head* Am tired and sleepy but I cant go back to sleep. Damn. Im cranky yo.

Im up for nothing. Im thinking stupid thoughts.

Im feeling happy today. I feel good today. :P

Perhaps it's the morning fag. Perhaps it's the morning dump.

Happy Chinese New Year people. :)

Shit, Im late for my lunch with my friend!

Toodles!

[soundbites]
Gin Blossom - Till I Hear It From You

Hmmm I sure hope it rains.

I need a miracle.

I need new hope.

I need a new life.

I bet he is sleeping now. Nahh, dont want to kacau. :/

Garh, Im fighting with myself again!

[Added]
YES YESSS!! It's going to rain! Thunderstorms.. Yesssssssss... ;)

HURRAH! It's raining now!

Tadak Nyawa.

I am going to do spring cleaning for the whole of today and I've got a dinner to attend tonight.

Places like my pc table, own room, the room that I currently sleep in, and my closet needs my attention.

I've got no life and Im a loser. Hah, not going to the gig today. *sobs* Reason? Stay at home and spring clean. Tskk.

And Im hungry.. I havent had my breakfast and lunch also. :(

I didnt get enough sleep as I just slept for 4 hours only. Im sleepyyy.

Called up a friend who's at the gig now, 2nd band is playing now and Poseidon is on the 4th and Soundcraft 1 will be on the 7th line-up. Dammit, if I go now, I'd have to pay a freaking 12 ringgit for that.

*sigh*

[soundbites]
Mark Ronson - Ooh Wee

Paranoia.

Im utterly paranoid about my friend's sexuality.

This is bad.

As well as my weight.. and my life.

Hahhahhah.. ;)

[soundbites]
3 Doors Down - Here Without You

The Best Medicine.

"I read your composition about your house," the teacher said to her student. "It's the same as the essay your brother turned in last year." "Of course," the student said. "It's the same house."

A convict is sitting in the electric chair waiting to be put to death when he comes down with a cast of the hiccups. "Do you have any last request?" the prison warden asks. "Yes," replies the convict. "Could you do something to scare me?"

A first year student in Princeton asked an older student, "Where is the library at?" The older student replied, "Here at Princeton, we dont end sentences with prepositions." Taken aback, the first year tried again: "OK, where is the library at, moron?"

Weekend is approaching, and next week is already Chinese New Year. Time flies, dont they?

Sincerely my boogie bear, how are you? We havent been talking, have we?
I wonder what's the best medicine for me at a time like this..

[soundbites]
Propellerheads - History Repeating

New Year's Eve/New Year's Day.

Welp, this is kinda overdue but what the heck, better to be late than never!
Heh, my new year's eve and new year's day was more like a mini bloggers meet. It was fun nonetheless with the company of fellow bloggers like Nigel, Jasdev and Regina, other non-bloggers are Siang Mum and Shazli. Nigel, Siang Mum and Shazli were hailing all the way from KL. They were really fun to hang out with although that was my first time meeting up with them. I can tell ya that blog actually brings people together. :)

During New Year's Eve, Celcom was having this mini meet-the-fans session with artistes like Disagree, Naked Breed, Single Track Mind and another band which started off with the set but I didnt manage to get the name. Oh well, it was late afternoon then and I was around there chilling out and having late lunch with some friends. I saw Alex Yoong and his wife, Adriana Teoh(did I get that right?) as well. Strangely I managed to put enough of courage and went up to Jason Lo and talked to him, shook his hands and then had a lil chit chatting session with him as he was sipping away his ice blended from coffee bean. Man, he grew a lil bit of err, goatee which made him look different and slightly ang mor kau-ish. Gosh, he looks hot in that pair of hot pants. LoLz, humour me eh.

So I went home, goyang for a while and then took off again, just so that I could avoid the traffic around gurney. And so I did, found myself a parking space and then grabbed my messenger bag full of "equipments" like water bottle, digicam, fan, cd, marker pen, tissue paper, notebook, ballpoint pen, ciggie, lighter, sweets and my purse. Then headed to gurney plaza where I met up with another bunch of friends and had dinner, later I wandered around and check out the sidewalk as well as the stage platform. Packed indeed. In order for you to get into the front part of the stage ya have to go through at least THREE checkpoints, the last one actually required you to get a pass or something, which is totally stupid lah. Somehow I managed to talk my way through the guard and he let me in. Anyways this celebration cum concert thingy was sponsored by Samsung with the quite annoying tag line "Sama-sama, Together with Samsung".

After a while, Jasdev or was it Nigel called me, so I met up with them after 15 minutes of trying to shove myself through the crowd. We hugged, introduced and shook hands with each other. I felt like I know everybody since high school or something.

After much loitering around and walking aimlessly around gurney, it was time for the countdown.. starting from 10. Once it was after twelve, I took out my can of graffiti strings (or whatchamacallit? oh, its called the crazy strings or silly string.. oh err!) and started spraying around for a bit in celebration of 2004. Couples hugged and kissed, Friends hugged and patted each other, it was a moment of merriment, everybody has got a smile on their faces as they watch the fireworks to welcome the year 2004.

So the stage was crowded by b-boyz with Too Phat tshirt, breakdancing and doing some kind of break dancing formation. Too Phat was the opening act after the clock struck 12. But before that, there was some performance by Patrick Teoh and his drama gang, really cant remember their names. It was so crowded that I was always watching out for people not to step on my new Frankencylde. :P However, Deana Yusoff was pretty sexily clad with her frindge tight pants, hair extension and was doing covers of Kylie Minogue and of her own singles.

Here are some of the pictures taken though the battery was running low.. I didnt manage to snap pictures of Naked Breed as well as Disagree. Too bad, but Im glad about these as well.


Lo tuning up on his bass guitar.. in substituition of his hospitalized bassist, Pacai.


The man on vocals.


Oooh ahhh, am getting the hang of bass! Yes!


The first time I saw you cry
I held my heart again...


Alex strutting his stuff..


The Alex(es). Particularly like this one, great shot! w00t!!









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By request..

Look ma! I've got two heavy dangly b00bs that can touch my groin!
Look ma! Im protecting myself! Just like what you've told me to do!


You gotta agree w me that they rocks! Disagree w yellow shirt fontman - Zahid.


For your viewing pleasure, heh.


Go go go!


Hmmmmm.. French Connection!! :D


We had a little open bottle session at a hotel around town area after the concert. I went back home happy because I've got an autographed STM cd and poster, STM stickers and his tag around his neck. Actually it was Regina's but then she was being such a sweetie, she gave it to me. Awwww! *hugs & muaks!* Lemme see, I got my hands on Alex Yoong's and Disagree's autographs as well as an autographed tag. Oh and Jason Lo's autograph.. yes *nods* AGAIN! :D Sure me will ya?

How should I not feel happy eh? ;)

So at the hotel room, Navin joined us and it was all clean fun and everybody was pretty much drinking away except Shazli.. as he was appointed a very important task which is to take care of all of us, just in case everybody passed out. Siang Mum was being the very kind bartender who always says "eh, bring your cups weih", "hey, come, another shot", "eh, take your cups weih".. sure enough, as you can see, she's very generous at pouring our drinks and she makes sure that everybody gets enough of alcohol running in their systems. Cute.

Each and everyone, bloggers, non-bloggers were talking and yakking away with jokes and funny body language. We really had fun. :)

Heh, indeed, there were people passed out and at the end of the day everyone was pretty much worn out. I shall not mention names here and kids, stay away from alcohol mmmkay? (graceshu impersonation :P) It was early in the morning then after Shaz dropped Regina back to her house while I was being the tourguide. Later, as I was driving back home alone, I could see people wearing their sports gear going for a jog, walking the dog and the dark sky was giving way to daylight.

Are you having fun too? I wonder.

I slept for a while but then I woke up just so that I wont miss out on the beautiful day, besides I had to give Nigel and gang a call just so that they would make it on time to check out of the hotel. They were really a bunch of sleepyheads and I was being very long winded.

Suddenly after lunchtime, Nigel or was it Jasdev that called me up and then the next minute, they were in front of my house picking me up and then we headed for the beach. Lovely, lovely. :)

Captain Jas and Nigel gave away their virginity to jet skiing with one guy with his jeans folded up and another one who took off his pants and only left with his pair of boxers! Again, I shall not mention names. :P However, it was a good deal but then being a spectator sitting by the beach with the warm company of Shaz(zy), I ended up contributing for the guys to have a good time. LoLz. But then it was all cool to be able to see ya friends have fun and screaming all the way with ahem, boxers on and hairy legs/arms/chest.

It was fun. And again, really fun.

Jasdev, Regina, Nigel, Siang Mun, Shazli.. you guys r0x0rs! I had a B.L.A.S.T.
Nigel, thanks again for letting me drive ya damn sleek and sexy car!! Muaks. Damn still cant stop thinking about it! :D

Lastly, I wanna thank Graceshu for hosting my pictures and my dear friend for lending me her digicam. *hugs*

Phew! Now THAT'S a heck of a long entry. I can post this up now.

[soundbites]
Audioslave - What You Are

Guilty As Charged.

With me hanging up that phonecall, it made me feel superior and accomplished. But at the same time, unbelievably bitter too.

I was washing my car and cleaning the interior, spraying detergent and some agent to make it look shiny and clean. Suddenly, he gave me a call. Knowingly, I acted cold. He asked me what Im doing and whether he's interrupting me. I said sort of and hang up.

I cleaned my window with all of my energy, I pressed the cloth as hard as I can to wipe the window. I guess anger was filling up in me while I kept thinking what I should do after Im done with the car. To call back or not to call back. To tell or not to tell. To confront or not to confront. Then I concluded that he's a vain scumball. Then I thought that I've stuffed down more that Im suppose to since that day. Dammit.

Well, what I did was I called him back. "Whats up?" I said coldly. And comtinued nonchalantly while actually I was using I-know-what-you-did-and-I-saw-it-and-now-Im-listening-and-you-explain-yourself-now tone. He noticed and asked me if I was okay. "I'm fine." I lied. Without wasting anymore time and money on the stupid phonecall, I asked him and confronted him. Hesitantly he told me what I saw and I screwed him right there without revealing much about how I felt about it. I didnt plead, I didnt blink. But I could sense myself shaking. My voice was shaking for a bit. I regained my strength and told him about the whole incident and he was as expected, speechless. Well, not exactly speechless but trying to save himself. He explained himself using words like 'casual' and 'it was nothing' which I find very pathetic and irrelavant. I pressed even harder and snorted at him, then he was totally speechless this time. I picked myself up telling myself that I should end this once and for all seeing that there is no point in talking more about it. Nonetheless, I gave him a chance to explain and I warned him that he'd better do it now or he wont be having any chance later. He gasped at this point I persume because he was again, speechless, he didnt say a word. That's it, I thought to myself. I announced that from that moment onwards, he wont be hearing from me and I shall not hear from him. Then I said bye.

I hung up on him with silence in the air.

I recalled, I didnt raise my voice, I didnt loose my cool, except that there was a point where my voice was shaking and I had hoped that he didnt notice it.

To the shower I went, took a long hot one, cleansed, scrubbed and conditioned. I just want to be left alone. Deep down, there was a *slight* expectation that he'd call me back but I seriously doubt that. Perhaps where I've gotten that kind of expectation was that my ex used to call me back whenever we ended up in a fight.

I got out from the shower and dry my hair and body with my towel and peeked at my cellphone which I have left it on the bed. Nope, nothing, the screen was the same as the time before I threw it on my bed. For a moment, I have a tiny smile formed around the corner of my mouth. I thought to myself that I was correct and didnt expect much, for once.

I am, in fact, glad.

I stood up for myself.

[soundbites]
Resh Monu - Dont You Cry

Pash.

I just got home, horribly exhausted.. and here's what I wrote just now while working. Well, aku tadak hidup. I know. *nods* But will ya just gimme a break here? I need to vent out my misery. Horrible. Im better off with my own ranting and panting to myself.

Here goes..

I'm terribly shocked. what I want to do now is to just go home, take a long hot shower, curl up in my bed with my blanket over my body and never get out of that comfy position. I really wonder where I'd gotten the power to get up in the morning, or rather manage to fall asleep after what I've witnessed yesterday night. It made me wonder even more at how I manage to smile at almost everyone who passes by who could probably be a potential customer. Now I seriously wonder at the fact that how I manage to hold back the blood that was forming inside of my bleeding heart.. and how surprisingly the people seems to be picking at the scabs. I'm indeed surprised. I havent shed a tear, nope, not a single one. Im worried for myself. Am I turning numb or am I letting that bastard to get away with what he had done. The most outrageous thing that I did that resembles me fuming is probably driving 50 kmph while listening and singing along to Matchbox 20's Push. Repeated the track. The van driver behind me must have thought that Im really a mad lady driver and not to mention psychopathic(?), seeing that I was shouting, ahem, I mean singing with goddamn fuming emotions on my face. What I've done is probably shurugging off the thought of him.. or how I should react, what I should have reacted or maybe even worse, yesterday's incident. I guess Im a stronger person compared to last time. Im really getting over. Im slowly letting go.. but dont you dare come along picking at the scabs, you hear? Perhaps Im destinied not to taste love as a dessert or a sweet delicacy that completes dinner. Perhaps Ive grown stale on that subject. Perhaps I will neber love again. Now Im starting to think that things happens for a reason. Despite working and feeling tired and Thursday's post-clubbing exhaustion, as I fell asleep in the car while waiting for my god brother and going for amovie is all worth it I guess. It made me realized that all the hurt and experience, he's not worth it. Though I used to hang on to a glimmer of light and hope. It's depressing. It's distracting. It's pathetic and It's over.

Can I say that Im dropping him like a hot portable grill? I need to rehydrate myself, Im way too dry.

I rest my case. No pas de deux for me.

[soundbites]
Nitin Sawney - Nostalgia

Of Putting On Weight & Work Related Issues.

*announces*
I AM HUNGRY.

I've been binging on food ever since erm New Year's Day, which is bad as Im putting on weight. Humph. {Note to self: As if lah I am not fat. Bahhh.} I should stop eating food that contains carbohydrate.. Sheesh, been eating a lot of rice lately.

Okaylah, okaylah.. I am NOT hungry. :/

Third day of working and I am feeling bored out. Ever since the end of school holidays, the business has been lagging. It's really having a drag on my motivation at work. Pfffffdddtt. :[ And I just found out that I wont be having any off days until this coming monday. *cries like a baby* This is really a d.r.a.g. lah.

Ho hum. So anyone of you readers out there, who has got my number, feel free to sms, call or just simply kacau me if you like. I'd most probably be bored stiff and yeah, you'd probably got me saying that, again.

{crap}
Yes sir, I have an american slang claimed by an Aussie couple but I always listens to RedFM when I work because they rocks as they play good tunes ranging from hiphop, r&B, rock, alternative and even pop. I'll remember myself for bringing a piece of cloth to wipe and detergent to clean the window glass. Seriously, from what I have observed, the locals doesnt really smile at me but the foreigners do. But I thought Malaysians are known for their (so-called) friendliness?
{/crap}

I think I've already have it all planned out. The first thing that Im gonna buy with that amount of money that I've worked is probably a CD.. still not sure what to get though. You have any ideas? The second thing is most probably a treat to DOME and then buy myself NY clothes. Hmmmm, looks like I'd be spending all of the money that I've earned.. anybody wanna take me and go shopping? :D

Well, gotha make a move, friend's coming over to go for dinner.

Lastly, if ya noticed, I've reshuffle the codes and stuffs.. Am happy. :)
{Added : Taggie is up!}

[soundbites]
DJ Shadow - You Cant Go Home Again

Quick Update.

{mode : normal}
My lack of blogging of late is not intentional.

First off, I started working, err full time. So that explains why I dont really have the time to update anymore. But Im itching all over to update whenever I come back from work. But what the hell.. I was having some problems with the phone line and I thought it was because I didnt pay up for my previous bill. Then I managed to find out that it was because of Streamyx that was causing the problem. However, I later found out another thing - the port of my phoneline went kaput. The phone is not working at all. -_-" Even at this point of typing.

Seeing that I work during the office hours (no, I dont wear office wear) and only have a day off, I think I will only be able to fix the damn problems when Im not working. Unfortunately, I have another ticket to settle for parking in a bus parking space. My short sighted spectacle which I need to get it fixed that might just cost me another 40-50 ringgit as well as to consult a doctor for the hideous looking red spots that recently formed on my leg.

I think I still owe you guys a (so-called) review of Rock The World IV, my Xmas eve, my encounter with local celebs, my New Year's eve, and my two days' old day job. Man.. I felt exhilarated yet exhausted but I had so much fun during those events.

{mode : GARH!}
Other than that, one particular classmate of mine is really not trustworthy as a friend or classmate for that matter. She did it once, and now she's doing it for the second time. I'll bet there will be a third time coming my way. Unreliable. Untrustworthy. Untruthful. Full of lies and motives of taking advantage. I can safely say that she is not worth a friend. She really annoys me. Eurgh. Now Im starting to realize that the people around me can be bunch of whopass bastards, or bitches for that matter. People are not nice anymore. Damn, I got to watch my back. Eeekk.

{mode : mushy}
To him,

Do you still remember when we first corresponded with each other, I told you that you are the one that I always think of whenever I feel like talking to someone? You told me that you feel the same about me as well. Frankly speaking, I still do think about you whenever I feel like talking to someone. You never fails to pop into my head though I try to shut you out of my head. Truth is, I think that you are the one shutting me out and not putting any effort. Well, I still think of you and I always will think of you.. I wonder if you will still say the same thing to me or nothing..

Yes I hate the way I feel and it makes no sense. I dont like what it means. Cause I know there's more to come. I can't go home.

I walk around lost and I don't know why
I don't see the faces or the places that I should recognize
It's like that dream where it feels like home but it don't look right
Yes I will look everywhere tonight
I will not stop until I make things right
And I can't go home until I see the sun
I can't go home
No I can't go home

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Stereophonics - Maybe