pics taken during 211207PGS

You Is Idiot.

why you ask?

the conversation went like this..

me : are you using the car tonight?
you : got la, got laaaaaaaa..

then you hung up! pundek ayam kanenatiuniamapukimakccb!

me : bo akai. ask only ma..
you : ask this kind of stupid question people busy working
me : basket.
you : use your brain! prawn! some more 1 mad at ppl..
me : haha dunno what youre trying to prove also. busy working wor.. some more got time to reply. haha okla nevermind i is stupid.

dude, i was sniggering you and your england darn good. you're one bloody idiotic basket and the rudest person i've ever met. is there such a thing as a stupid question? fcuking ego needs polishing ar.. i WONT ever succumb to that. next time you were to ask me stewpit questions im gonna snap at you and fuck you off. damn smart to twist and turn your words and intentions when you're around her too huh?

you fcuking spoilt brat. go ahead and rot, i dont care.

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Hot Chip - Over And Over

Eejit.

you know that kind of feeling when you're dead tired from work after the bloody long hours and finally when you get home, you just want to wash up, relax for a little bit before you head on to bed and get some much deserved rest?

but no, when i came back, there are beer bottles, ciggarette ashes, rubbish and plates for you to pick up and wash. smell of ciggarettes and beer is in the air like a pub. plastic packaging of snacks on the floor and table. unfinished beer bottles. loads of ciggarette buds and ashes. all the bloody lights were switched on and plates on the basin to clean up.

ARGH!!!!!! why simple things like picking up your thrash is such a difficult thing to do?!!!?

useless fcuking piece of shit. you think this is a hotel and that you have maids for the rest of your live to pick up after you? its okay to be lazy at times, but ALL the fcuking time is too much!

Tiptoe Miseries.

now is a very good time for me to detach myself. suddenly all the self realization has come into mind.

so many things that i want to get myself detached from.

there's this dude that i wanna get away cuz he's not treating me right. playing some sort of a physical or mind games with me. dont get me started. oh what an idiot.

there's you. it's been more than a few weeks. singing my own sympathies, wishing you're that someone that is in the same situation like me. at least i know that im not alone regarding that matter. but thats just selfish thinking. youre not someone whom i have enough to own.

there's you. too much torture. fcuked the living broad daylights out of me. i've had enough. too much longing that has come to an end. can it come to an end?

there's the green bucks. shopping kills. too much of a big fan of chilis, TGIF, adidas, MNG, Gap, facials and gosh, thinking back, i dont know where they all went!

sigh.

sometimes i just feel like my life is lonely as ever.

and shit, those goddamn horrible memories are back to haunt me and think im about to curl up in bed, poison myself to sleep and then die alone.

[soundbites]
godfrapp - let it take you

Lost In You

Lying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind

I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true

And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, Im dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, Im dying to speak to you.

Staring at the wall, I sink inside
I think about it all, I get caught up in my life
I cant think straight, because its tearing up my mind

I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true

And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, dying to get through

The more that I think how I need you
The more that I think, the more it seems true
And now it means more that I ever meant it to
Ever meant it to

Lying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind

You are always on my mind

thanks ming for the superb pic. it cheered me up n it reminds me how beautiful the world is.
its comforting in a way.

Over And Over.

A heart that's full up like a landfill,
a job that slowly kills you,
bruises that won't heal.

and there you go.. i started work at 9am in the morning, woke up at 730am to wash my hair and then here i am, just got back from work. too tired to do any shit.. the only thing i could think of is i need a fucking smoke and i wanna go out in the rain and drench myself and then fall sick..

fucking misery loves company. well said james.

im feeling like the weather now. im not thinking straight. im going crazy, im loosing my mind. i could even burst into tears right after i feel angry and frustrated at work.

[soundbites]
Radiohead - No Surprises

Just Back From Work.

oh. bugger.

someone please hire me. i need a new job.

i totally love the money.. even though with what im performing i ought to get paid another 400 more.. i love the reputation of my company, the fact that its near(er) to my house, the fact that i allows me to be a bloody yuppie just a tad bit.

but please.. i need a break. from working 13 fucking hours everyday or even more. like i dont have a bloody social life and i cant even roll my tongue to converse a decent speech to a stranger or to pick up any guy. my speech probably deteriorated because of my work.

lately.. ever since i started this job, i've put my mouth there unattended most of the time. less talking, less eating cuz gosh we dont even have the time!, less drinking, less sucking, less flicking the tongue and less.... oh god, im getting obscene arent i?

egad.

and i need more sleep and more money so that i can go travel. or maybe not, cuz im deprieved of a travelling partner.. but i need a long break so badly that i dont even know where i wanna go!

someone please sweep me off my feet and take me somewhere nice. and i need a bloody stick so badly now. and some attention please!

[soundbites]
the cure - pictures of you

How It Went.

and so.. this morning i was dreading to go to work. first, i need not have to punch in/clock in. i will be the first in my department there. even though the other depts were there much earlier. i dont have a computer. i dont have a cabinet. once i hop in, i'd just sit there and read and read and read till i get bored and then i go to the loo. actually for a walk.

and so.. that explains why i didnt bring my own mug, slippers for relief, muesli bars, tissue box, mp3 player, calender or even my hp holder.

but then.. thank god for me having rather enough sleep the day before, so i got through the day just fine. :)

today my mind went the positive way and suddenly i wanna be the yuppie thats been hidden for sometime now. i wanna buy my own mini cooper dammit!.. and a bloody flat screen monitor.

when i came back, i was watching one korean movie and ugly betty at the same time.. but different channels. wahrao. fcuktard.

tired, i wanna go to sleep now.

[soundbites]
DCFC - a lack of color

damn. suddenly feel damn aggro lah. pent up one. i wish you could absorb it. spectrum a to z. la la laala...