Hmmm.?

remember this post?

featuring this picture back in 2005 with my french manicure. yeah was already into manicures way before they got darn commercialized and did lousy job with the price of rm30. pfdt.

anyways... i put up this pic as my display pic on msn and who would have thought that i would get this kind of comments.

it goes...

J says:
d fuck
J says:
ur pic like holding a dick!!
J says:
hahaha
J says:
obscene

me says:
ai ka hiao eh i got some more
me says:
dont ask for it arrrrr!
me says:
*pinch*
me says:
eh its french manicure lah wei
me says:
beh hiao!!!

J says:
aduh
J says:
hehehe...obscene

like damn WTF ok!!!!!! ROFLLL!!

maybe he's experiencing hangover, perhaps lack of sleep, perhaps he's feeling kinky, perhaps its DOES look like it.... what do you think?

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kings of leon - talihina sky

Post That Ends 2007.

Dear Readers,

Another year is coming to an end and this one sure zipped pass me in a blurry haze.

In the spirit of renewal and reborn this time of year, I wish you a brand new year of meaningful challenges and the opportunities to tackle them for growth, insight and wisdom. May there be blue skies on sunny days, cool breeze on warm nights, and may you achieve your heart's desire.

Here's to another brilliant one. Party safe and do not drink and drive like above.

Happy New Year!

ps: my friend ugin wrote this, so thank him by helping me to ask this chum to go to arcade fire's concert!

Yet Another Close Encounter.

FUCKGIN HELLL!''

THIRD timeeeee todayy! him again. fuck no! same direction. WTF WTRGWTFWTDFWTFWTFFF!

pics taken during 211207PGS

You Is Idiot.

why you ask?

the conversation went like this..

me : are you using the car tonight?
you : got la, got laaaaaaaa..

then you hung up! pundek ayam kanenatiuniamapukimakccb!

me : bo akai. ask only ma..
you : ask this kind of stupid question people busy working
me : basket.
you : use your brain! prawn! some more 1 mad at ppl..
me : haha dunno what youre trying to prove also. busy working wor.. some more got time to reply. haha okla nevermind i is stupid.

dude, i was sniggering you and your england darn good. you're one bloody idiotic basket and the rudest person i've ever met. is there such a thing as a stupid question? fcuking ego needs polishing ar.. i WONT ever succumb to that. next time you were to ask me stewpit questions im gonna snap at you and fuck you off. damn smart to twist and turn your words and intentions when you're around her too huh?

you fcuking spoilt brat. go ahead and rot, i dont care.

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Hot Chip - Over And Over

pic taken during 211207PGS

Another Close Encounter.

okay, okaaaaayy. whats up with this man? what are You trying to say to meee??!

i bumped into him... AGAIN! when i was on my way to get my manicure done.

him, the opposite direction. WTF?!?!?!

it felt like the whole world suddenly slowed down and everything moves in slow motion. and then fast forward and back to normal again. aiks!!!

Close Encounter.

i saw him. i turned back and i slowly followed. it has been a few times around that area.. its quite rare since he's staying on the other side of the island. so i considered this a sign. i reached his destination and i came out from my car. pretending to buy something.. i actually wanted to get eclipse but they didnt have it.. so i came out.. just about the same time as he did.

i had the chance to go over and say hi..... but i backed out. i chickened out :(

then he went away.. sighhhhh

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At The Drive-In - Invalid Litter Department

Blisters Of Life.

ever felt lost without directions in life?

life used to be filled with happiness contained in bubbles that fly around as the mild wind breezes by. now it has evaporated or disappear into the thin hot air.

well thats exactly how i feel now.

life with no directions.

pretty fucked right?

unfortunately enough for me, i won't be able to confide in my better half or my friends or my family.

something rather difficult for me to decipher. feeling lonely and bored and nothing to do on a sunday afternoon. life is so unfulfilling. >.<

i think every darn aspects in my life are pretty fucked now.

welcome to my horrible miserable life.

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Luna Sea - Breathe

Hopping Into Puddles.

it's hong kong's national day today and i just realized something.

today. i celebrate my one year anniversary... of working.

many things come and gone. and most of it made me a stronger person.

i've learnt to keep my mouth shut, to learn it the hard way, to be more focused and most of all i've learnt how to spend without qualms. made friends along the way and some of them i truly treasure as they extend their sincere hands in offering friendship. gave some really good advice and kept me focused. thank you.

at first, i had to deal with difficult people. the only way to satisfy them is... well, satisfy them. give them what they want and just get it over and done with and send them out the door asap! as for the childish and immature superior(s), you just have to let time to decide their fate. one day they might be caught off guard and then the truth would be told. sometimes there's just nothing you can do about it. sadly, you can only let time decide and if you cant take it anymore, just quit. like what i did, but i got a better job that pays well.

definitely better prospects and huge on reputation and size. now, when youre in a small company people recognizes you for what you did and how you've performed but when you're in a big company, you tend to shrink in size and ability. work pressure, stress and the things you do tend to be more specialized being the excuse for that. either you can do it or you cant.

superiors tend to judge you judgementally. if that makes sense. they dont have much time in hands to evaluate your abilities other than the mistakes that made headlines. so there's pretty much the time you have to impress your bosses. superb right?

heh, seems like i've slowly evaluate more on the negative eh? but it's okay, i keep telling myself that i'm gonna be okay, i'm going to have a great leap, a leap that would escalate my entire career to the next level. things will change, my time will come, my golden opportunity is imminent.

in the mean time, i would have to keep myself sane from climbing the corporate ladder. being in the corporate world, ppl wear button shirts, slacks, heels, makeup and stuffs, sometimes i find myself just like them. but deep down, i'm still laid back as ever. i still wear tshirts, shorts, flip flops and go to gigs and hang out with my non working friends, though i envy them for bumming, i sometimes inadvertantly wishing that i could be like them. just like old times.

i hate (now working) friends who would teases me or compare me or even comments on my dressing with old times, like i am still the same old immature kiddo back in high school. can i not wear shorts and flip flops on weekends? hell i've been wearing slacks and shirts the whole time, its scary and sometimes uncomfortable. dont judge me as i wouldnt expect you to have any expectations cuz we're old time friends as i do not expect you to be looking all perfect without a scratch. so stop. you just havent seen me nicely lacquered from nails to toes, looking all feminine in heels, hair perfectly in place like i just got out of the saloon and a decent dress code that could made you feel out of place.

bah.

it's been a tough year. i've been sick numerous times this year. having to say that, yours truly is still nursing a flu, occasional headache and a heartache. it'soctober now, and november and december on the way. i'm just really hoping that all these troubles and stress would slowly be resolved and things slowly falls into places.

it's been hell of a rollercoaster ride. please dear god, let me have the strength to stay put and manage the remaining months with ease.

as an ending, happy working life everyone! here's to another great year to come!

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sigur rós - sæglópur

Random Foreign Notes.

The Institute of Physical and Chemical Research, Wako, Saitama, Japan

my dear jit pun na friend,
thanks for making my day.
oklah i roxor and you roxorz tooo!!!
you really want me to go over to Japan during autumn eh? :P
oh and i thought you'd be shy to show face so i made it avatar style. dont mind yah?
thanks for being an avid fan and a great friend.


thanks again ming. for the wonderful pics. come back soon. :( we miss youuuuuuu..

i think my biggest vice is junk food. *frowns*

i stayed home today nursing my flu and headache. i got sweaty and sticky from packing up my things into boxes.. though not many of them but im glad i sort out some of the stuffs that i have. just like how i needed to sort my life out. i'm in need of balance. in search for the perfect balance.

my break is just around the corner even though i have today and next monday off. i'd be glad to stay home and pack my things.. or sort my life out, rather.

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OLIVIA - Make It Mutual

(\_/)
(o.0)
(u u)

so i wanted to take today's Insanity Streak featured in The Star today to post up an entry but I couldnt find it online. sigh..

and so, yeah I called in sick today.

i LOVE an ordinary day WITHOUT stress.

im gonna channel my negative vibes into positive vibes.. so here goes..

i love the sunny weather.

i love tying my curly hair up and wear dangly earrings.

i love listening to this album called The Complete Cocktail Nights [Collection: Suave Sounds For A Smooth Sip]

i love wearing tshirts.

i love wearing flip flops.

i love sushi!

i love chatting with old friends.

i love to cruise with the window down, sunshades on and killer music.

i love my lego earrings.

i love to go dancing.

i love to go shopping alone.

i love to webcam.

i love to think.

i love to get to know people.

i'd love to sleep. gonna take some meds and head on to bed before i go to aunty's place and if possible back for a quick cycle around the neighbourhood.

have a great great day

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max melvin - seaside

Decision.

Owww. i am in pain.

i need a break from my work.

... but seriously i am in pain. somehow that act as a darn good excuse for me not to go to work tmr.

should i? should i not?

My Pop Weekend.

so last weekend was a blast!

though i was knackered and deprieved of sleep. but i had an enjoyable one.

was working half day on saturday with a bad mood caused by some inconsiderate colleague. i was so nice to you before this, so i really dont know why you have to behave like that. im disappointed in you. you really didnt have to do that. i stood up for you when everyone was picking on you. i covered your arse when you did smth wrong. i asked how you are doing when your eyes were red from sobs. now thinking back, it was so not worth it.

and since i've been craving for banana leaf since... a few weeks ago, i finally had it together with a good friend. so good food, soft and tender mutton, tasty squids, crispy papadom, great company, great conversation = bliss.

it was raining the whole day though so i went CD shopping and discovered a bossa nova singer called Olivia. stunning and sultry voice. just something that i was looking for.

heh on a side note, think im starting to mellow down in music taste since im experiencing so much work stress. really really old skool jazz is my cup of tea now.. haha.

then i adjourned to getting my nails did. trimming, shaping, lacquered and shiny. bought a box of starbucks mooncakes for my family as well as some more mooncakes for friends.

got home, showered. mom cooked dinner, yummers! home cooked food roxors! then chit chatted with mom for a while before friends called. time to change, bling blings, put styling thingamajigs on my newly curled hair, bob it up and paint the town red. =D something which i havent been doing since eons ago. dont recall the last i danced though. was prolly when booboo and feme si a sia were here?! *shocked*

we headed down to babylon, had some to drink and i totally fell in love with the place and oh! the waiter was super duper friendly with a great service. be sure to catch me there next time though.. heh. then midnight came and we headed next door and danced the night away! dancing to hip hop, slight jungle and trance.

im glad to say that i survived a 3 and 1/2 hours of 3 inch heels non stop dancing! *chuckles* thigh abit sakit now.. hehe thanks desmond and co. for letting us girls 'taab toi' :)

sunday was a relaxing one..

watched transformers on the player, cooked instant noodles with lotsa veggie for breakie. watched grey's anatomy on the telly while eating mooncakes. went to the bank, temple, pet shop to get dog food, bought lottery(haha!!!!), then had yummylicious tomyam buffet steamboat for dinner. definitely suits the chilly weather i'd say.

then came home, fed the dogs, showered and put on a nice mask, pampered myself with lotsa hyration to the skin before i fell asleep.

BEST!!

alangkah bagus kalau tak perlu pi kerja pada hari isnin yang biru nih?

sigh!

time to sleep now. still have a LONG week to go before the next weekend is here!

here's to a good week ahead!

*snores*

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ne-yo - because of you

The Call.

just finished talking to a college mate whom i havent seen and chatted since our convocation last august.

... which cheered me up quite a bit.

its always nice and soothing to catch up with old friends eh?

we talked abt our current job, who's attached to which company and how everybody else is doing in the corporate world. i take comfort in that. at least im not the only one suffering in their current jobs. heh.

i suggested that we should meet up.. then perhaps a trip together? a short trip to somewhere nearby. a getaway for all of us corporate ladder climbers. a stress free trip to get away from the busy and routined daily life that we're leading. perhaps perhentian, redang, tioman, pangkor..

then i suggested somewhere far.. to visit a few friends in shanghai since we misses them so much :( then something i'd say brilliant but requires ALOT of effort in turning it into a reality. i suggested that we should go to shanghai and then to beijing for beijing olympics 2008. that would be so awesome *dreams*

but everything is still at the planning stage. since everybody has a job to up keep..

but one can only hope for the best eh :)

we'll see how it goes..

now, i feel glad and comforting that i have sunny friends who once shared my golden college days. the trips to KL, the getaway, the makan trip, the shopping trips, the times we managed to go through the jungle college days.

*smiles*

thank you. thank you all.

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telepopmusik - breathe

Hello all.

im alive. even though i was working when the mild quake took place. i was actually working my arse off at my 20 something level office building.

i was calculating the over afew thousand dollars VIP transaction, tapping away on my calculator, clicking on the mouse, focusing and cracking my head when the shake took place. my next door colleague asked me.. eh, you felt the building goyang or not? then that caught my attention... heh i had to, i stopped, feel the ground and yeah it was shaking! mildly that is. then alerted other colleagues as well. some felt it, some didnt. for a moment there i was feeling sea sick like im in a boat or smth. owww.

then came the second one. this time, it got stronger and even the water in my transparent water bottle shook. now you cant deny that! and true enough, more people felt it. we almost... dammit ALMOST had to press alt + ctrl + del and run towards the door. haha maybe not run but more like taking our time for a bit, chit chatter while we're at it before we hit the ground floor.

but like i said, we did not leave our office building. we just continue with our work. how sad.

and by the time i finish up my work and get out of the office, it was already 1030pm.

sigh.

its not a smooth sailing day for me. kinda rough and it has always been like that ever since i join my company. but i guess the only thing i could rejoice about is that i get to get off work half an hour earlier (my balls!) and that my heart is beating faster and yeah i am alive.

so bloody hell, i rejoice... in taking a smoke.

tomorrow is just another day. read the papers and pray for safety for all!

ps - got email at work about the places or countries that has been hit. trust me, there are ALOT of countries been hit, so have a moment and pray. may god bless them all.

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sigue ros - seaglopur

Tiptoe Miseries.

now is a very good time for me to detach myself. suddenly all the self realization has come into mind.

so many things that i want to get myself detached from.

there's this dude that i wanna get away cuz he's not treating me right. playing some sort of a physical or mind games with me. dont get me started. oh what an idiot.

there's you. it's been more than a few weeks. singing my own sympathies, wishing you're that someone that is in the same situation like me. at least i know that im not alone regarding that matter. but thats just selfish thinking. youre not someone whom i have enough to own.

there's you. too much torture. fcuked the living broad daylights out of me. i've had enough. too much longing that has come to an end. can it come to an end?

there's the green bucks. shopping kills. too much of a big fan of chilis, TGIF, adidas, MNG, Gap, facials and gosh, thinking back, i dont know where they all went!

sigh.

sometimes i just feel like my life is lonely as ever.

and shit, those goddamn horrible memories are back to haunt me and think im about to curl up in bed, poison myself to sleep and then die alone.

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godfrapp - let it take you

Got Pirated.

so the pirates came out and play today and i get to witnessed it on the very very first day :)

right after i came out from the cinema, friend texted and asked me to go watch this saturday pulak.. heh, i really dont mind watching it for the second time though.

i even wanted to go watch a second movie right after that but then i thought, since its my off day i should share some time with my family. i had blades of glory on my mind though. maybe this weekend i suppose.

however, i wanna talk about going to the cinemas and shopping in a third world country's b grade gitty ghetto shopping complex.

first there was the rude ppl who holds the lift like forever.. bloody lift hogger. then theres the idiots who dont know how to move their ass when theres someones who wants to go in. im just thanking god tht when i hopped into the lift theres no odour or stuffs like that. eww.

when i was eating my lunch, the peeps next to me were smoking.. like i dont mind if you were to smoke and all but just be a tad bit civilized cuz youre indoors. the worse is, the guy was flicking his ashes while im on the next table eating my bowl of hot noodles. fugger! then the girlies next table was acting like theyre damn high class like that. demanding the waitress to cancel their orders just cuz they suddenly changed their mind. but, the thing is they didnt say it politely. never did they ask whether the chef has prepared it.. "just cancelled it" she demanded. fuwah, just because they changed their minds. so difficult to earn money lah nowadays...

then in the cinema, theres the idiots who sat next to me and hogging the arm rests. or those ppl who cant stop talking and shrieking at stuffs thats not even funny. those inconsiderate bugger who lifts up their feet and put it on the head rests in front of them while clearly theres someone occupying the seats in front of them. girls some more ok! and the fools who cant stop shaking their legs beside me. be it that the seats are not so spacious and the bugger sat next to me just have to cross the line to put his feet on my side. -.-"

the day the pirates came out and play, the day its buddha's day in hong kong, i'll remember... that i got my tragus pierced.

sekian, terima kasih.

sleep beckons.

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joe satriani - always with me always with you

new ride

sweet ride

muse-ically inclined fan

where i spend 12 hours a day on a weekday

just finished cheng beng and kind of tired from all that hassles throughout the whole week. really need some time of my own and some time for my friends. havent met up with any of them for some time now. but do thank god for last night's precious 8 hours of alcohol induced sleep. perhaps a lil anger and sadness between that. maybe another round tonight? minus the sadness and anger that is. Heh.

now im gonna take a shower, put on my mascara, lipgloss and light make up and head out for some grocery shopping and i need to hunt for a pair of work pants and a pair of shoes :) i feel like beautifying and treating myself today.

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Beulah - Popular Mechanics For Lovers